I'M THINKING OF SHUTTING THIS DOWN...
Month: May 2006
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yes i'm posting again...
lemme just say i now know who my real friends are... those that actually give two shakes about me... and for the first time in my life:
i am brushing those fucking haters off me and moving on with my life!
and now 
my granda (yes - i spelled it right, adrian's grandfather) is coming down on friday from scotland! i am so excited to finally meet him... i wont be able to meet nanny because great nanny is on her death bed and she needs to be with her... oh well adrian and i have plans to visit them at the end of this year! ooo YES!
yeah go ahead and faint i posted real close to the last post... haha we will see how long this lasts HAHA
<3 jay
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a real post
who else is in love with the xanga footprints??? haha
isnt that a great concept? i think so. i mean i've been using a xanga tracker for sometime now... to check my privacy... i know that doesnt make much sense... i write things on the internet and then get mad when certain people read them... well if you knew the people i was trying to avoid, you'd probably do the same. i will never ever ever waste my time on an immature boy & and i will never ever ever date a guy off the internet again... cause they are fuckin psychos... believe me... please... never do it...
anyways i know i dont write much in here... basically cause i'm up on the myspace now... loving it... haha
so life... adrian and i are doing great still... he's great! now the friend issue is still up in the air... i'm starting to wonder who is my friend for real. lately i dont speak much with the girls i use to spend all my time with... i'm really not sure... and part of me really dont care no more... cause i'm tired of being upset about it and crying... it dont work... i mean one keeps up with me... the other one ignores the shit outta me... oh well you wanna handle it like that fine... i made my effort... thats all i care about ya know... i try and try to stay up... but it's kinda hard to do when they live in the same house together and what not... i guess people grow up and stop caring about people... i dunno... i know that aint the case for me... i mean yeah i'm hurt... i'm real hurt but i aint gonna bend over backwards to talk to them (when i say them i dont mean more than one person)... i tired of being the whimpy bitch that kisses ass to be friends with someone... i aint in fuckin high school no more... i'm 21 years old... i dont do that... anyways then i got another ordeal... where i'm being annoyed to tears... i dunno it just seems like no matter what i say... it's their way and they just dont wanna see it... i mean i guess i can respect that... you're grown... but i'm trying to help you out... and i wanna say so much more but i dont want to come off like i'm trying to be someone's mama or i'm trying to dog them... cause i'm not... honestly with the whole friend thing... people need to grow up... everyone... i know i'm trying... i'm not there... but i'm damn close
anyways lemme go to bed... it's 2:30 and i need to get some damn sleep already... i'm such an insomniac
? jay
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