September 18, 2006

  • r-i-g-h-t

    i know i said i was gonna update more on this but dang on... i straight up forgot about xanga. myspace gets love all day. but anyways... yesterday was probably by far the worse day of this year. it started off with saturday night...


    ebony threw carson a suprise birthday party. only he wont that suprised in the end. LMA0. i thought it was pretty funny. i ended up finding out that i like bud light. i'm not a beer person at all. i dont like the smell or the taste of it. but for some reason bud light just was an exception. so many i wont feel so left out from now on when people have parties with just beer. haha. well there were MAD skateboarding/surfing/whatever people there. bit weird to me. i mean yeah i'm white but i dont neccessarily get down with all of white culture. i'm a mix of both white and black. i cant help be this way. from early on i felt more comfortable with black people. but basically there were T0NS 0F PE0PLE there that shared no common interest with me.


    after that, a bunch of scallywags came in. looking for the unsuspecting victim. i hate girls like that. and pretty much everyone and their mama was up in the house and i couldnt deal with it. so i decided to go to nat's. it's this bar that adrian use to go out to a lot with his boys. it was dan's 28th birthday so they were celebrating. i was gonna surprise them. i had a long island, hung out for half an hour and then decided to drive back home. adrian stayed. and i figured he would.


    he also had to usher in the morning so i asked him to make sure that him drinking was not gonna interfer with his religious responsibility to usher. he promised me it wouldnt. and it did.


    at quarter to 6 he decided to drive home from dave's after taking a 2 hour nap. he stops at a redlight. and falls asleep. cops find him. give him a test. he blows a .16 and he's arrested for DUI. and part of me was ANGRY because he's so foolish when it comes to drinking responsibility. it is possible to have a good time & drink and be able to drive home later. he doesnt grasp that concept quite yet. part of me was HURT because he promised me that he wouldnt drive home drunk (from a previous argument we had one night) and because it seemed it cared nothing about his life or the life of another. and i was very THANKFUL, that somehow the lord made him stop at that light and fall asleep. because i wonder if he had gone any further would he have killed himself? would he had killed another? i know i couldnt live with that.


    god was looking out for him. and i told him now he has to ask god to fix it. he said he didnt feel comfortable asking god to help fix something he did out of sin. and i told him "god knows what you did was wrong. so just tell him you know you messed up and you're sorry. and ask him to help you. thats it."


    but i'm just so happy that he's alive. god really is so good.