GRADES

MUSIC - D
PSYCHOLOGY - C
SOCIOLOGY - B-
HUMAN SERVICES - A-

oh yes thank you jesus... last day of school was tuesday... i took my first exam today in psychology of the exceptional child... and i have 2 on monday and 1 on tuesday... so yeah... i'm getting down to the nitty gritty... i'm looking for things to come out like this... not the best grades but i'm going to have to live with them...

Psychology: B or C+
Human Services: C
Sociology: B
Music: D

anyways... so next semester i'm taking

Biology & Lab
Technology & Society
Human Services: HMSV Methods
Human Services: Career & Appraisal
Psychology of Women

i'm almost done!!!!! hahahaha

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE ON THEIR FINALS!!!

PS -  premium will be gone soon... LOL i'd really love to see it stay... if anyone feels generous... i'd pay but i'm so broke it's not funny! LOL

stratch that!

i'm not going protected... excuse my french but who gives a fuck about those people... i dont... i mean damn... whatever

it dont matter though.... cause i have a solution that fixed that... so i took care of the situation and i'm moving forward...

you aint holding me down...

never thought the day would come... but it's time to go protected...

01. xanga isnt the hotness anymore so i dont care too much about it; however, i still wanna keep it
02. no one really reads this like they use to
03. xanga as a company and on a whole SUCK
04. xanga is being taken over by the pre-teen ghetto fabulous/emo grunge scene
05. SOME PEOPLE JUST DONT GET IT! like the ex-boyfriends...

so thanks for playing!

right now i'm going through all my archives and i'm making everything private... that might take me about a week or so... since i'll have to go back to july of 03... but i dont really care... anyways... until i get all that straightened away... i wont post anything else... probably not until AFTER this semester...

so if you would like to be on the protected post... make sure i know... leave me a comment... i really appreciate it!

I LOVE ALL MY GREAT SUBSCRIBERS -- i'm sorry they had to ruin it for everybody...

i may go back to public posting... if people leave me alone... 

this is exact why i said what i said...

i made a little side comment and WHOOSH there goes an old flame... multiple reasons why i originally blocked persons who didnt have a xanga... for the purpose being... I DONT WANT CERTAIN PEOPLE TO READ ABOUT MY LIFE... well maybe the good stuff... but as far as prying you've got better luck hitting up the myspace...

EX-BOYFRIENDS

to one: i really dont know why you feel the need to know what's going on in my life, you obviously wanted nothing with it so why do you want to know.  you lied to me... everything that was us, was a lie.  i dont know if you take me as stupid, but i aint.  i know whats truth when i hear it... and nothin that came out of your mouth was it.  i tried to work things out with you like you wanted but then you never let it get to that point... why? cause it would have never worked and you know what i'm talking about. if you have something to say to me... say it. otherwise i wish you best of luck with everything and you go your way and i go mine.

to the other: you're such a pussy.  you played nice with me to my face and then talked shit about me behind my back.  you swore up and down that i was psycho... no that was love, that was giving you my life because thats what people do when they deeply love someone.  you're the fucking psycho one... denyin to people what really happened, couldnt make up your damn mind... i knew what i wanted i never flip-flopped. if you dont give a damn about me why do you constantly check my SHIT???? and i finally got to a point where i was like fuck this shit... he's got some issues.  grow the fuck up... i aint gonna be nice about it anymore... 15 years i spent worrying about your ass... that is no more.  you use to be my best friend and you use to be the love of my life... but you changed... you use to be just a wonderful person... and now you just look like an ass. granted right now if i saw you i wouldnt have SHIT to say to you... but besides that i hope you have a good life... i hope you find some kind of happiness and become a REAL man. and like i said to other dude... if you got something you wanna say ASK ME... if you got something to say SAY IT... otherwise you can keep on living your mediocre life.

THE MORAL OF THE STORY::: I AM HAPPILY TAKEN/ENGAGED TO A WONDERFUL MAN THAT I LIVE WITH.  HE'S NEVER LIED TO ME, HE ISNT AFRAID TO BE HIMSELF, HE ISNT AFRAID TO LET ME BE WITH HIS FAMILY OR ENTER HIS HOME, HE ISNT AFRAID TO SHOW HIS EMOTIONS, HE ISNT AFRAID TO SHOW ME EVERY CHANCE HE GETS THAT HE LOVES ME, HE ISNT AFRAID TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME... BECAUSE HE TRULY LOVES ME AND I TRULY LOVE HIM.  THERE ISNT ANYONE IN THIS WORLD I WOULDNT WANNA BE WITH MORE.  HE MAKES ME SMILE EVERY MOMENT OF THE DAY BECAUSE I KNOW THAT NO MATTER WHAT... HE'LL ALWAYS BE THERE AND HE'LL ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND. I DONT EVEN HAVE TO THINK TWICE ABOUT IT. NO IT'S NOT ALWAYS LAUGHS AND KISSES BUT EVERYDAY IS WONDERFUL BECAUSE EVERYDAY IS REAL... NOT FAKE, NOT MAYBE... REAL.

AND I SHOULDNT CARE LESS WHETHER OR NOT YOU TAKE THE TIME TO READ MY XANGA ONCE IN WHILE BECAUSE REALLY IT ISNT A CRIME AND IT'S PROBABLY OUT OF PURE CURIOSITY, PLUS IT'S ON THE WWW FOR ALL THE WORLD TO READ... BUT FOR THE RECORD I DONT REALLY WANT YOU TO KNOW ABOUT ME. TAKE IT AS BEING RUDE, MEAN, HURTFUL, BITCHY... WHATEVER... I JUST FEEL LIKE THAT.

sorry... had to vent... i'm seriously thinking about deleting this xanga and starting off with a new one just because of this little incident...

yea know you it's almost the end of the semester and people start running around like chickens with their heads cut off...

i know i do it to myself every single semester... so i'm here in the library doing some research for two papers... which i dont feel like fucking doing (excuse my french)... i'm sick and tired of looking of journal articles... i'm trying to do a paper on marriage/family therapists (my future career) and there is SHIT about it... so i'm going to have to incorporate several job titles into one paper... great... i'm ecstatic!

but other than that i'm ok... adrian and i are still absolutely wonderful... i couldnt ask for a greater guy... and anyone out there that doesnt believe that such men exist are fucking haters and they can get the hell over it... i'm sorry you cant find someone like that... just keep on looking... thats all i can say...

anyways... friends are alright... i guess... i aint worried about it anymore... lol

but yeah i just thought i'd vent about ODU (it's a love/hate relationship) and whatnot... i'll be so glad once school is done for summer...

I LOVE YA'LL THAT STILL READ THIS... well maybe not all of ya'll... but my faithful friends and readers...

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a little side note for my ex-boyfriend(s) :: stop trying to check up on me... if you wanna know so damn bad... ASK ME... then again dont... cause i dont want to talk to you... i dont go reading about your lives anymore... cause it aint my concern... so if you got something to say... go ahead and say it and let it go.... keep your peace cause i dont need to hear about ya, hear from ya, or anything that has anything to do with you...

lemme blow off a little steam...

hung out with liv last night... had dinner & a few drinks... invited people... and yet... i assume they have better things to do...

jennifer called me this morning and wanted to know if i wanted to come out there and hang out at karokee... i'd love to... but i dont have no body to come up there with me... jennifer is like "why?" and i just got really upset... adrian keeps sayin that i'm taking it too much to heart... but i ended up crying to him this morning about how much i miss my friends and how hurt i am by them... i think he realized now...

now dont think i'm being a bitch about the situation... no wait i am... cause i've been real calm and collect about it for too damn long... i'm over the bullshit between my friends... i'm over tippy toein' around the matter of fact... matter of fact is... my friends have completely dissed, abandoned, screwed me... whatever choice words you wanna use...

odds are i'm gonna get somebody that has something to say about this... if they even read the shit... but oh well... i dunno how to come at ya'll with it without ya'll getting mad... cause ya'll know i'm right and not bullshittin... i've tried to keep in contact... but no body calls me back... and i'm not gonna keep putting myself out there... FOR WHAT??? it aint my job to keep tabs on ya'll...

and i just feel like going "what is so damn important that you cant even call me back and say 'nah i dont wanna hang out'?"... please people grow up...

what happened to ya'll??? what happened to my best friends???

i had a good birthday! thanks to everyone for the comments!

now off to bed... cause i'm driizzzunk!

birthday is officially in one hour!

21 bitches! feeling good!