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[ quote ] :: "you talk to your ball jay! talk to it!" - jaz, joking me cause i talk to the ball when i bowl

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[ survey tuesdays ] :: nonsense and no sense

[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "so my skirt fell into the toilet!" - me, "good job babe! hahahahaha" - adrian

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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Alisha Country: United States State: Oklahoma Metro: Tulsa Birthday: 7/24/1986 Gender: Female Interests: Hanson. Admiral Twin. Ingram Hill. Michael Tolcher. Christina Aguilera. My old school crew. Eating. Reading. Writing. Orange. Green. Pink is okay too. Purple. Silver. Brunettes. My car. My HOE. Harry Potter. And pretty much everything the popular kids say is out of style. =) Expertise: You.. Occupation: Artist Industry: Art Email: email me AIM: cryinX Member Since: 6/8/2005

this is lish... very old faithful subscriber of mine from back in 2003... she's great... go give her some lovin...

well well well....

 adrian and i couldnt be better...  hehe mmmm yea... nothing more on that.... LMAO

so anyways yesterday was pretty good... the quantum leap dvd was a smash hit with daddy... he really liked it... then i came home and chilled... i tried to take a nap but my baby woke me up... then after that... p.lane and i headed to walmart... ebony met us up there... we were in there for quite a while... let me tell you... everyone and their mama was up in walmart last night i was like DAMN!!! then we went to mary kay's and tried to wax my eyebrows but that didnt work out as well as i wanted it to... lol

anyone see the new jessica simpson video??? pretty good... i'm starting to like her music a bit... or maybe it's just cause she actually put country in her song...

adrian met daddy today... hmm... lol

but yeah i'm about to call this a post... i'm gonna pick up jaz, get something to eat, and watch her run the track a bit... it's been real... much love xoxo

<3 jay

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HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!! to the daddy's, the to-be daddy's, and the someday daddy's...

i dont feel much like doing the sunday seven... forgive me... haha

Your Daddy Is Arnold Schwarzenegger!

What You Call Him: Pops Why You Love Him: He's the Mack Daddy

i hope everyone is having a kick back sunday... much love xoxo

<3 jay

[ mood ] ::  

[ quote ] :: "Mom! We are on high alert here. I almost killed you right there!" - vince vaughn from mr. and mrs. smith

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[ charlie brown saturdays ] :: the peanut gallery

happy birthday granddaddy!  i miss you so much!  i love you!

ok so umm yeah... basically since i update much for yesterday when i do update then thats what i'll do...

ugh the comments are screwed up... how depressing is that???

yesterday was friday... i got up and went to al's diner with my aunt debbi and grandma... then we went shopping at garden ridge (a decorative store outlet), dollar store, went to sonic and had ice cream (i had a milshake), and then aunt debbi and i headed to walmart... i bought a few things....

i got dad the first full season of quantum leap on dvd for fathers day... he loved quantum leap when i was a kid... i figured he'd really enjoy it... speaking of daddy he is getting his tattoo today of a frog with angel wings (granddaddy loved frogs) and granddaddy's dates on it (june 18, 1926 - january 9, 2005)... so i'm excited to see how it finishes out...

then i went home and spruced up myself and my room... then i met up with adrian and we went to see mr. and mrs. smith... not all that great of a movie... i dont recommend seeing it... maybe renting it... but anyways... i really wanted to see madagascar but he told me we'd go take googy to see it... awww....

but nothing much is going on today... basically gonna try and check up on some laundry and then get a shower and whatnot... chill... basically thats it... much love xoxo

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "i was on the phone with my boo boo!" - me, "what you skinned your knee a put it to the phone?" - rodger

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[ flashback fridays ] :: wooo hooo

click here to read 02.07.04

this was the one of my ranty-est posts ever... i just bitched the whole time... and it was so funny... hilarious... i bitched about the janet jackson thing, about stupid teenagers, about my ex and his now fiancee... it was just a really hilarious post... 2 thumbs up...

ok so... today was kinda boring... as always...

i didnt clean not ONE bit today... i refused... i wasnt about to go and do it just so someone could turn around and junk it up...

the following is rather long but worth the read... or at least i think so... i didnt feel like linking people anymore so... you should know who's who...

so anyways i'm gonna rant a bit on my love life... which is gonna be interesting so everyone be sure to read this... last year around this time i was hung up over a certain individual and really i still am... i love cory more than anything in this world but maybe god put us together for a different reason... maybe not to be soulmates... although i could be wrong and if i am thats wonderful but if not... i'm not upset about that either. so anyways i was stuck up cory's ass and basically screwing around with this someone which i will now not disclose any names... basically that was all i was givin to work with... the guy i was screwing around with was a great friend of mine and someone that i love dearly too... you never stop loving those you've had a past with.  now we jump from 2004 to 2005 and here i am... basically i've had a total of about 4 guys stuck up my ass... which i find weird cause i've never been the girl who grabs guy's attention... maybe when i was in middle school but definitely not now.  and here's the line up... justin was "head over heels" in love with me (i do quotations cause i dont know) but screwed things up and doesnt contact me for 3 months.  he just expects me to throw my life upside down because now he called.  then i meet a really great guy... we'll call him adrian.  he really isnt my type in someways but for some odd reason i just cant shake him.  then i met a guy through xanga that i had all intentions of just being friends with, because i try not to expect too much from people when it comes to dating.  he ends up coming on way too strong even in a friendly sense and i lose interest.  he basically freaks out, insults me, and over dramatizes the whole ordeal.  and of course occassionally my friend from last year calls me every once in while.  so where does that leave me.  well obviously the guy from xanga gets no more mention because it was a stupid situation.  my friend doesnt get a mention because although i love him dearly it didnt work out with us for a reason.  that leaves me between justin and adrian... and for a while i was confused... because here is justin telling me he wants this and this and this (all the things i desperately want to hear) and here is adrian giving me no guarantees but i can tell that it could go somewhere.  well adrian and i had a few disagreements and whatnot (the weight issue, past relationship issues) so i figured even as badly as i was hurt from justin why not give him an inch... and so i did... and it's really funny... when he couldnt have me, he was being so romantic and perfect... as of recently when i gave him an ok... i suddenly dont hear from him.  as julia roberts says in pretty woman "big mistake! HUGE MISTAKE!" i dont have time for the stupid games. either you want me or you dont and obviously you dont.  so there i was lonely as all GET OUT... occassionally adrian and i would talk, just as friends because we decided to remain friends.  well deep down inside... i'm wanting adrian.  so every now we text, we flirt, we call each other... whatever. now i get to a great part...

yesterday adrian came over mary kay's and ebony watched goog for a minute while we went to the bank, blockbuster, and mcdonalds... and as uncomfortable as it should have been between the two of us (for those lost in the loop, he broke up with me because of my weight.  he said he wasnt physically attracted to me).... it wasnt... at all.  he kept saying cute things and being real gentlemen like.  so we come back to the house and eat and popped in HITCH... which is by far the worse let down i ever experienced... moving on... we ended up kissing... nothing hot and heavy but just a lil bit... we ended up going outside for a cigarette and he had made some comment and i shot back with "you dont deserve that kind of attention.  you arent my boyfriend.  besides you arent attracted to me like that..." which was me being a bitch about why we broke up. then he confesses something. he didnt break up with me because of my weight.  he broke up with me because he has a fear of being in a committment with me.  now you may ask why a 23 year old man has this issue... because when he graduates from aviation school he wants to move out of state and he knew that i wouldnt fly for it... so he said i made up something mean instead of saying "i dont wanna fall in love with you and then you break my heart by not following me where i need to go." well it makes perfect sense now... he asked me would i move... and i said no.  i stand firm on my answer and it broke him down and we had a long deep discussion about moving out of state.  this boy was trying every thing under the sun to persuade me to move... and i could tell.... he's completely fallen for me... he wont dare say it now and i dont want him to but i could see it when he was talking to me.  after an hour long discussion we realized that the two of us were so desperate to make the other one either go or stay.  he keeps compromising on my end but he knows i cant compromise my family.  he said if i had a better opportunity here than he had somewhere else he'd stay here, if norfolk international gets off their ass he'll stay, or if i change him in a profound way he'll stay. and i compromised a teensy bit... if he gets a job in NC... i'll go with him but anywhere else no. and he kept bending himself for me... which it suddenly went off in my end "this guy is so smitten with me, that he's including me in his plans and he is trying his damnest to make sure i stay in his plans".  on top of that he was talking about a life together... not just something for right now... something that could last and mature into the life i want.  i just have to stop and thank god for it and pray that it all works out.

ok that was a ridiculously long post... im so sorry ya'll... but thanks for letting me share that with ya'll... much love xoxo

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[ mood ] ::  cheesin ass grin

[ quote ] :: "googie has a HUGE HUGE HUGE crush... on carson..." - me, talking to mary kay

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[ dis or dat thursday ] :: call me crazy but i'm sick of this feature...

i need a new feature... like wacky news or something LMAO yeah... wacky news...

yeah i know this is about like 3 days late but i figured i'd say something about the whole michael jackson thing... my take on the situation.  so if there are any michael fans in the house this isnt a rant or anything, i'm not gonna sit here a bash the guy.  matter of fact... i LOVE michael jackson... (HEEEE HEEEE sorry lol). actually i adore 80's michael (::singing:: "dont stop til ya get enough!")

for those not hip on the times he's been found innocent.  all charges dropped.

now i dont think he raped some little children, but i will say some inappropriate things probably did go down at neverland ranch.  no doubt about it.  i really had no opinion about his innocence the other day when my dad called to tell me.  while i dont think a bunch of nasty things went down, he should have been charged for distributing alcohol to a minor.  i'm sorry but giving children wine and calling it "jesus juice" isnt a really good idea.  i mean sure my mama let me sip some stuff when i was younger, but she never poured my ass a glass of boone's farm and said "chug-a-lug."

i think the only thing jacko is guilty of is having psychological issues.  while he's lived in the lap of luxury, he's by no means had the best life.  you guys have seen the jackson 5 movie... thats some rough stuff.  and unfortunately michael never had the ability to enjoy a real childhood.  he never got to ride his bike down the street or go to the park with his friends, because he was driven to be a performer.  i think personally michael is reverting back to childhood, or has refused to grow up because he demands the childhood he never got to have.  and it's really sad to watch this man have these issues, simply because something inside of him is dead.  the child in him is gone, whether or not he wants to admit it.  he continues to live that childhood, but we all know that it cannot be revived.  he thinks that having 12 year old friends is ok when by society standards its a bit creepy.  i dont think he sees anything wrong with it because deep down inside he wants to be 12.  being all into psyc now, i see all the things wrong with him.  it's really sad but he has to face the facts that he's 40 something years old and he needs to speak with a psychologist about these feelings he has.

and like i said before i'm not gonna sit here a say something definitely didnt happen because we as regular joe's will never know, but part of me believes these kids and their parents are so freaking desperate for quick buck they'll make up any kind of perversion.  i mean according to the jury the mother and the kid couldnt keep their stories straight.  wtf? if you're gonna lie under oath you better be damn good at it and have a good well-produced story.  it's sad to think michael could have, but it's even more sad to think that people would make up bullshit just to watch other celebrity squirm under the light, shoot their creditibility to hell, and get paid for their dishonesty all in the process.

ooo man i guess i had some stuff to say lol

today was by the far...................... the best day of my life................... and ill leave that statement alone right there

i feel horrible for not posting this but my girl courtney had her precious little girl... her name is angelina ranee... go give her some new mommy love...

so anyways woke up and went to mary kay's... i was tired as hell... fed up with people's bullshit.... just wanted to go to sleep... tried anyways... googie kept jumping on the bed and squirming around on the bed like she had ants in her pants and of course it's really hard to try and sleep when barney and friends is on in the background so this was me for about two hours: :::sleeeeeeeeping::: :::googie belly flops on the bed::: "GOOG!!!! STOP WIGGLIN'" and it would have been funnier if you guys were there... i was cuddled under her blankie and laying on her princess pillow.... and of course i'm hilarious when i'm half asleep... i sound drunk... and really southern...

carson woke me up ringing the doorbell... he came over and hung out with me for while and played with the goog... then i discovered a mouse on the trap... and good ole buhbie carson got that glue trap out the cabinet, put it in a walmart bag, and beat the hell out of it in the street with a shovel... i know pretty inhuman but at this point i'm fed up with cleaning up after the damn bastards... you could have rolled over that thing with a steam roller for i cared... i'm sick of mice...

saw ebony briefly but it was all good in the hood...

watched HITCH... dont watch it... it's dumb.... well not really just nowhere near as funny as i expected it to be...

but anyways this is the best post i've written all week... this week started off FROM HELL... and now i'm singing I'M IN HEAVEN... haha well much love xoxo

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: i have 2 today...

"come near me mouse, i'll suck you up in the vaccum cleaner.  darn i should be using the wind tunnel cause that would be pretty awesome to see him swirling around in there!" - me

"oh yea they lived all in here... the 'subeh' college... they had a frat party in here... omega mickey mouse!" - me, talking about the mice

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[ a waste of time wednesday ] :: quizzes with html codes too

You Think Michael Jackson Is Guilty

Q: How do you find out Michael Jackson's sperm count? A: Look it up in Webster's.

wow i'm tired... really tired...

today was another rough day... it was driving me crazy... carson came over a helped me with a few things... and then tory came over and helped me... my friends are great...

i'm just upset about a few things... things i dont want to get into right now cause i'm trying to go to bed and i'm on the phone with jaz... i'm just kinda pissed and annoyed and scared off... crazyness... i'm sick of being involved with desperate, needy people... why is this always the case?

anyways i'm off... much love xoxo

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "i use to hate you..." - carson, talking to me... haha

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[ survey tuesday ] :: nonsense and no sense...

1. Your Full name: jennifer nichole rash<br /> 2. Do you feel like your name fits you? pretty much i'd rather have nichole as my first name...<br /> 3. Do you have an alter ego? If so, what is his/her name? not really... there's jay rah... but we the same<br /> 4. Where were you born? norfolk, va<br /> 5. Where do you live? va<br /> 6. Do you like to travel? yeah, but when it's time to come home i'm all ready for it<br /> 7. What is your birthday? 2.22.85<br /> 8. Do you have siblings? yes one brother, justin (4)<br /> 9. Do you have pets? yes 1 dog, bear<br /> 10. Which was the happiest year of your life? 2003 up until cory broke up with me<br /> 11. How old do you wish you were? 25: married... trying to get pregnant<br /> 12. A movie is being made about your life. Who would you cast to play yourself? julia stiles<br /> 13. Who would you cast to play your significant other? (if you have no significant other, cast someone anyway) ashton kutcher<br /> 14. How would this movie end? i get married...<br /> 15. Is it better to be famous or infamous? infamous... i'd rather live a modest life<br /> 16. Youre going to die a natural death. What is the cause? old age<br /> 17. Youre going to die a sudden, tragic death. What is the cause? something quick and painless<br /> 18. How long do you plan on living? 70's or 80's<br /> 19. What was the last song you got stuck in your head? no no no dont phunk with my heart... lol<br /> 20. Sing any commercial jingle. brother's in law... huffman and huffman<br /> 21. What is your favourite element on the periodic table? einsteninum<br /> 22. Sunrise or sunset? sunset<br /> 23. Introvert or extrovert? introvert<br /> 24. Creation or evolution? creation<br /> 25.Action or reaction? action<br /> 26. Unity or individuality? U-N-I-T-Y<br /> 27. Hugs or drugs? hugs man... hugs<br /> 28. Animal, vegetable, or mineral? wtf? lol animal<br /> 29. Popsicle, creamcicle, or fudgecicle? fudgecicle<br /> 30. Fight or flight? flight<br /> 31. Who is your favourite historical figure? einstein<br /> 32. Which historical figure could we have done without? paul revere... he didnt even get to say "the british are coming"... they lied about it<br /> 33. What happened in the last dream you remember? i really dont remember<br /> 34. Do nice guys really finish last? yeah<br /> 35. What are your favourite boy names? i like good solid hebrew names like jeremiah, isaac, isaiah, noah, nehemiah...<br /> 36. What are your favourite girl names? geneva nichole, emma marie, stormy roxanne, rene<br /> 37. Open or closed? open<br /> 38. White bread or wheat bread? white<br /> 39. Is it better to burn out than to fade away? fade away<br /> 40. You put a quarter into a toy machine. What comes out? hmm instant husband LOL<br /> 41.What do you want to be when you grow up? counselor, psychologist<br /> 42. What were your favourite childhood toys? umm barbie...<br /> 43. What was your first pet? cat rascal<br /> 44. What annoys you? stupid people<br /> 45. What is your favourite action caption from the old batman tv show? (example. "pow" or "blam") didnt watch it<br /> 46. How many licks does it take to get to the centre of a tootsie pop? mr.owl says three<br /> 47. The glass... half empty or half full? half empty</p> <p>WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON<br /> 48. Tightie whities. if you have to...<br /> 49. Mc Donalds happy meals. awesome<br /> 50. Reality shows. i hate them<br /> 51. Gummi bears or gummi worms? dont like candy<br /> 52.Would you rather sky dive or deep sea dive? neither<br /> 53. Paper or plastic? paper<br /> 54. What position do you sleep in? usually on my left with the leg tucked under the other leg<br /> 55. Do you sleep on the left, right, or the middle of the bed? always on the left... out of habit from my ex<br /> 56. Sweet or sour? sweet<br /> 57. What was your favourite after school special? saved by the bell lol<br /> 58.What is your favourite word? expeditiously<br /> 59. Beach or mountains? beach<br /> 60. Mounds or almond joy? neither<br /> 61. Do YOU feel like a nut? yes<br /> 62. To give or to recieve? give...<br /> 63. Chocolate or caramel? chocolate<br /> 64. Do you have any nicknames? jay, jay rah<br /> 65. What does your name mean? jennifer - fair maiden, nichole - victorious<br /> 66. Have you ever fainted? yep<br /> 67.Have you ever had a crush on a school teacher? ooo yea a few<br /> 68.What was the last thing you ate? chinese<br /> 69.Do you have any bad habits? smoking</p> <p>WORD ASSOCIATION </p> <p>What is the first thing that comes to mind when you hear...<br /> 70. Grey... hound<br /> 71. Human... race<br /> 72. Fruit loop... bright<br /> 73. Glove... michael jackson<br /> 74. Plum... pudding<br /> 75. Structure... building<br /> 76. Race... to win<br /> 77. Heart... broken<br /> 78. Parasite... mtv commercial</p> <p>79. What was your first happy memory? probably getting a toy or something lol<br /> 80. What was your first unhappy memory? umm probably mom and dad splitting<br /> 81. If you could visit any time period, what would it be? the 20's and the 80's... oh and egyptian pharoh time<br /> 82.What would jesus do? do the right thing lol<br /> 83. Make up a word and define it. buttwack - something that is butt and wack... phemonenonly horribly<br /> 84.Favourite kool aid flavour? red... ooo ya know i'm black<br /> 85. Favourite pick up line? hey... lol<br /> 86. Who was the third gunman on the grassy knoll? wtf...<br /> 87. What did you like to make believe as a child? that i would get married and have babies<br /> 88. Did you have an immaginary friend? nope<br /> 89. Would you like to live in a castle or a mansion? mansion<br /> 90. Re-arrange some of the letters in your first, middle, and last name to form a description of yourself. thats dumb...<br /> 91. Do it fast or do it right? right<br /> 92.What was the last book you read? a tree grows in brooklyn<br /> 93. Have you ever had surgery? no<br /> 94. Random fact about you. i love sweet tea<br /> 95. What is the first thing you wash in the shower? my hair<br /> 96. What is your favourite cereal? honey bunches of oats<br /> 97. If you could learn any foreign language, what would it be? i wish i was a bit more fluent in german... i speak pretty well<br /> 98. If you had the choice to live forever, would you? no<br /> 99. If you had the choice to be the opposite sex for a day, would you? hell yea</p> <p>DO YOU BELIEVE IN<br /> 100. Fate? god controls fate<br /> 101. Ghosts? not sure... but of a yes and no<br /> 102. God? of course<br /> 103. Big foot? i dunno... that tape weirds me out<br /> 104. Soul mates? yes<br /> 105. Aliens? i'm sure there is extraterrestrial life... but maybe not of which we conceive<br /> 106. Angels? yes<br /> 107. Loch ness monster? i doubt it<br /> 108. Heaven and hell? of course<br /> 109. The Zodiac? a bit<br /> 110. Love at first sight? hell no... thats not love thats lust<br /> 111. Karma? yes<br /> 112.Vampires? umm no</p> <p>113. If you had any super power, what would it be? invisibility<br /> 114. Would you use your power for good or evil? good<br /> 115. Name something nostalgic. hanson... sadly<br /> 116. What are your turn ons in the opposite sex? assurance, charming, talented, spiritual, romantic, FUNNY<br /> 117. What are your turn offs in the opposite sex? overwhelming, bossy, controlling, possesive, drunkenness, drugs, ignorance<br /> 118. What was the best compliment ever given to you? you are such a beautiful person inside and out...<br /> 119. Which character from Scooby Doo do you most relate to? none they all suck<br /> 120. What is the worst trend of the present time? umm i dunno... i'm sick of those ugg boots tho<br /> 121. Beer or wine? mixed drinks<br /> 123. You cant sleep. What do you do? get online<br /> 124. Do you wear jewelry? all the time<br /> 125. What is your favourite smell? country apple, freshness, grapefruit<br /> 126. What was the best decade of the past century? the 80's<br /> 127. Which is your favourite month of the year? december<br /> 128. Do you smoke? yes<br /> 129. Do you drink? yes<br /> 130. What was your favourite subject in school? history, english<br /> 131. What was your worst subject in school? science<br /> 132. If you had to give up one of your senses, what would it be? taste<br /> 133. Do you follow your head, your heart, or your crotch? heart is good but your head should do the logically thinking... the heart isnt logical<br /> 134. Do you truely know who you are? yep<br /> 135. Are you superstitious? a bit<br /> 136. Are you sentimental? very<br /> 137. How many times a day do you eat? i dunno whenever i'm hungry... usually twice<br /> 138. Are you more of a main idea or detail type of person? details<br /> 139. What is your favourite pie? peanut butter pie<br /> 140. Have you ever been close to death? no<br /> 141. Do you like roller coasters? i hate them<br /> 142. Apples or oranges? apples<br /> 143. Are you hyperactive? nope<br /> 144. Do you talk in your sleep? yep<br /> 145. What is your favourite holiday? christmas<br /> 146. Do you go to church? yes<br /> 147. At what age do you think you will be married? hopefully 22 or 23 maybe 24<br /> 148. If you could open up your own business, what would it be? child counseling<br /> 149. What was the name of your first boyfriend/girlfriend? bobby<br /> 150. What is your weakness? love<br /> 151. What was the last movie you saw that made you cry? umm... good question... i think it was... damn i forgot<br /> 152. If love were a flavour, which flavour would it be? afternoon delight!<br /> 153. If hate were a flavour, which flavour would it be? pistachio<br /> 154. Have you ever been prescribed any drugs? Which ones? antibiotics, etc.<br /> 155. Is lying sometimes necessary? sometimes<br /> 156. Bubbleyum or bubblicious? bubbleyum<br /> 157. What is your favourite curse word? fuckhead<br /> 158. Do you have any birthmarks? nope<br /> 159. If you could visit anywhere in the US, where would it be? new york<br /> 160. If you could visit anywhere in the world, where would it be? scotland<br /> 162. Do you feel like your physical self matches your personality? nope not one bit<br /> 163. What was the name of your kindergarten teacher? mrs. wilson and then mrs. liverman... i got switch 2 week in to another class<br /> 164. Do you wear glasses or contacts? glasses<br /> 165. How tall are you? 5'3<br /> 166. How tall would you like to be? 5'7<br /> 167. Your current mood: irritated<br /> 168. Do you dress up for halloween? yep<br /> 169. Have you ever been in a car accident? nope<br /> 170. What is your favourite lucky charm? i dont eat that dyed unnatural shit<br /> 171. What colour of underwear are you wearing? blue<br /> 172. Do you tend to date people younger or older than you? i've been with mostly younger but i like older<br /> 173. Do your exes look alike? nope... well actually all very tan, brown hair, brown eyes... yeah i guess...<br /> 174. Do your exes act alike? no way<br /> 175. Have you ever been in love? yes a few times<br /> 176. What is your favourite kids movie? all disney baby<br /> 177. Have you ever hallucinated? hahahahaha nm<br /> 178. What do you like most about the opposite sex? the eyes<br /> 179. What do you hate most about the opposite sex? insensitive, stupidity<br /> 180. Have you ever been on a blind date? yea lol<br /> 181. Would you want to be cloned? no<br /> 182. Have you ever peed in public? no<br /> 183. Are you an optimist or a pessimist? optimist<br /> 184. How did you find out that there was no santa claus? i dunno i just figured it out... it wasnt shocking or anything<br /> 185. Pancakes or waffles? pancakes<br /> 186. Are you on a diet? yea kinda<br /> 187. Why is the grass always greener on the other side? until you get what you really want deep down... yea<br /> 188. Do you always want what you cant have? no<br /> 189. Do you act stupid around someone you have a crush on? yes<br /> 190. Have you ever been arrested? no<br /> 191. Can you cook? yes, very well.<br /> 192. Do you think its wrong/weird if a girl asks a guy out? no i think it's great<br /> 193. Do you have any allergies? yeah<br /> 194. Ketchup or catsup? ketchup<br /> 195. Do you believe there is a meaning to life? If so, what is it? yes... to live according to god's will<br /> 196. What do you think about before you fall asleep? love lol<br /> 197.What are your thoughts on the nature of good and evil? who cares? good wins in the end.<br /> 198. Step into your cave. There you will find your power animal. What kind of animal is it? umm a dolphin<br /> 199.What does your power animal say to you? EEEEEEEEE *dolphin noise*<br /> 200. End this survey with a quote: "For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."<br />

man today has been some day... day one of full time googie... it was pretty cool i must say... she's only 5 and she's picking up on multiplication... isnt that amazing? i think it's great... i'm really trying to get her prepped for school... and in my personal opinion... studying at home and during the summer should be something enforced by parents and caretakers... but yeah

so i was cleaning out the cabinets in ron and mary kay's house and had a nervous breakdown... ron and mk had freakin mice a few weeks ago so i was cleaning up their nesting grounds... it was disguisting... i wish i could explain in words how upset i got about the whole thing... lemme just say between the heat, the dirtyness, the PHONE RINGING off the damn hook, the TEXT MESSAGES every 5 minutes, and googie... i finally broke down and cried... i mean like sobbing and everything... i dont handle stress all that well and me being a clean freak... i felt like no matter how much i cleaned... i wasnt making it any cleaner...

anyways i'm kinda pissed right now... i made a very logical adult decision and a certain person wanted to jump to conclusions... i dont have to explain anything to you... but because i feel the need to put you in your spot i will do so... i swear... i could have sworn i was 20 and an adult... not a teenager... or a 5 year old...

anyways i'm out... it's late and i need to go to bed... plus i have a very IMPORTANT email to write and send out... much love xoxo

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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Cookie Country: United States State: Virginia Metro: Norfolk Birthday: 7/29/1985 Gender: Female Interests: Thinking.....Music..... Eating.....Daydreaming.... Giving advice all the while needing it......Trying to put my heart into working on my nursing degree Expertise: Love, Advice, Being that down ass EVERY guy wishes he had Occupation: Student Industry: Medical Email: email me Website: visit my website Member Since: 11/16/2004

i dont even know this girl... but she is kick ass... NORFOLK... HOLLA... ooo sorry booker t moment...

i hope everyone is enjoying the new layout... yes i changed it again... i couldnt deal with the crooked dolphin... it was driving me up a freakin wall...

alright well anyways... i figured i'd update real quick basically because i have to be UP very early in the morning.  tomorrow starts day one of googie full-time.  i'm looking forward to doing something during the day but alas... i dont really like the hours.  oh well i guess i dont have much of a choice... haha but i plan on stimulating the child's mind tomorrow... were gonna get up... bath, get dressed, have breakfast, then clean up together, watch a show,  then we'll work on ABC's and math, then lunch, then she gets some toy play time, then play outside, watch another show, snack, and then nap... then for the remainder of the day she can do whatever she wants... but i have FULL CONTROL of her... so we're gonna have a schedule... just like supernanny (my hero)

i'm a little happy for a reason i wont care to discuss... but it's encouraging... i'm really glad that everything is cool and A OK now... so yeah...

went and saw justin (my 4 year old brother) sing in church... he was SOOO good... i'm such a proud sissie... my buhbie was so handsome

anyways i figured i'd update since i'll be a busy bee tomorrow and then i have some plans tomorrow night... so yeah... much love xoxo

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[ quote ] :: "jennifer has a BIG OLE BUTT!" - googie, "yes i do..." - me

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name 5 of your closest friends.

state a quote to live by.

ok you're in yankee candle.  what candle do you buy?

what movie do you wish you could have been in?

what is something you are so desperate for right now?

so schools out... how badly did you suck?

would you ever shave your head for a large sum of money?

alright well... back from church and stuff like that... i'm so tired right now i feel like sleeping forever... if thats even possible...

that quote reminded me of rodger... when we were together he use to sing this old song from like the early 90's and he'd go "jennifer's gotta big ole butt... so i'm leaving you" lol

i'm pissed about this layout... i forgot it has no navigation links and my dolphin wont center... ugh... i take it down for a few months and put it back up and this is what happens... i dunno i may have to tweak it a bit... anyways.... soo...

i dont have much to say right now... i think i'm gonna go wash my hair... cause i hate this damn gel shit in my hair right now... i'm gonna change clothes (and go... ya know i stay fresh to def boy from the projects and ima take to the top of da globe)... sorry jay-z just SLIPPED on out...

i'm just a titsy bit mad with someone right now... actually two people but both shall remain nameless... just because i'm sick and talking about but i need to unleash it... cause damnit it's my xanga...

<STRONG>2O RAND0M THiNGS AB0UT Y0UUU</STRONG><br /> 01. i am a clean freak... seriously... it drives my girlfriends crazy<br /> 02. i love god and i'm not afraid to speak about it<br /> 03. i hate george w. bush with a passion but i respect him because he's my president<br /> 04. i am democratic... obviously<br /> 05. i hate racism, sexism, and whatever else kind of phobias people have against certain people...<br /> 06. I think paris Hilton is fuckin ridiculous<br /> 07. but i adore britney spears - c'mon her IQ is way higher that paris'<br /> 08. i'm not a big fan of the military<br /> 09. i will never leave virginia (to live anywhere else)<br /> 1O. i have more native American in me than anything, but i have my grandmother’s recessive irish traits.<br /> 11. I’m all for gay marriage.<br /> 12. i have a huge obsession with DISNEY, dolphins, elmo, and fairies<br /> 13. I love chicken nugget happy meals from mcdonalds.<br /> 14. i am a huge hanson fan. Circa 97 beware…<br /> 15. I smoke Newport 100s in box.<br /> 16. I am a ghetto white girl, but I don’t act like a damn fool.<br /> 17. i love tostinos pizza rolls. I live off them.<br /> 18. I drink like a gallon of sweet tea a day.<br /> 19. I have an odor phobia. So I have air freshners EVERYWHERE.<br /> 2O. I really want some chicken right now</p> <p><STRONG>19 BEST M0ViES</STRONG><br /> 01. gone with the wind<br /> 02. Moulin rouge<br /> 03. the little mermaid<br /> 04. beauty and the beast<br /> 05. the family man<br /> 06. American History X<br /> 07. a Bronx tale<br /> 08. bye bye birdie<br /> 09. look who’s talking too<br /> 1O. shrek<br /> 11. sound of music<br /> 12. big fish<br /> 13. cheaper by the dozen<br /> 14. yours mine and ours<br /> 15. pretty woman<br /> 16. peggy sue got married<br /> 17. whats eating gilbert grape<br /> 18. singles<br /> 19. my girl</p> <p><STRONG>18 FAV0RiTE S0NGS</STRONG><br /> 01. come on Eileen – dexy’s midnight runners<br /> 02. sweat – inner circle<br /> 03. song cry – jay-z<br /> 04. weird - hanson<br /> 05. all you need is love – the beatles<br /> 06. the heart brings you back – blues traveler<br /> 07. two words – kayne west<br /> 08. encore - eminem<br /> 09. new york new york – frank sinatra<br /> 1O. incomplete - bsb<br /> 11. I want you back – Jackson 5<br /> 12. papa loves mambo – dean martin<br /> 13. jealous guy – john lennon<br /> 14. take me out – franz ferdinand<br /> 15. never change – jay-z<br /> 16. let me love you - mario<br /> 17. underneath - hanson<br /> 18. that’s amore – dean martin</p> <p><STRONG>17 BEST BANDS / SiNGERS / RAPPERS</STRONG><br /> 01. hanson<br /> 02. jay-z<br /> 03. maroon 5<br /> 04. eminem<br /> 05. kayne west<br /> 06. the game<br /> 07. 50 cent<br /> 08. no doubt<br /> 09. frank sinatra<br /> 1O. dean martin<br /> 11. the beatles<br /> 12. aerosmith<br /> 13. destiny’s child<br /> 14. Britney spears<br /> 15. nsync<br /> 16. Justin timberlake<br /> 17. mos def</p> <p><STRONG>16 FAV0RiTE CELEBRiTiESSS</STRONG><br /> 01. jennifer lopez<br /> 02. Britney spears<br /> 03. taylor hanson<br /> 04. toby maquire<br /> 05. Johnny knoxville<br /> 06. sean Williams scott<br /> 07. jessica simpson<br /> 08. tom hanks<br /> 09. Julia roberts<br /> 10. kate beckingsale<br /> 11. ty pennington<br /> 12. Dakota fanning<br /> 13. mickey mouse<br /> 14. jimmy fallon<br /> 15. david spade<br /> 16. jay-z</p> <p><STRONG>15 FRiENDS</STRONG><br /> 01. jesus<br /> 02. ebony<br /> 03. jaz<br /> 04. p.lane<br /> 05. deanna<br /> 06. mk<br /> 07. jennifer<br /> 08. rodger<br /> 09. carson<br /> 1O. andi<br /> 11. colby<br /> 12. tory<br /> 13. lauren<br /> 14. kris<br /> 15. darrick</p> <p><STRONG>14 FAV0RiTE F00DS + DRiNKS</STRONG><br /> 01. pizza<br /> 02. spaghetti<br /> 03. dr. pepper<br /> 04. sweet tea<br /> 05. lasagne<br /> 06. toast<br /> 07. mcdonalds happy meals<br /> 08. applebee’s chicken finger and fries<br /> 09. hamburgers<br /> 1O. meatballs<br /> 11. pizza rolls<br /> 12. salt and vinegar chips<br /> 13. sunny d<br /> 14. jack daniel’s downhome punch</p> <p><STRONG>13 MEM0RiES</STRONG><br /> 01. being born LOL just kidding<br /> 02. seeing the red light in the sky and thinking it was Rudolph @ christmas<br /> 03. being in the teahouse with nana and grandma<br /> 04. going to new york<br /> 05. the rose on the porch step w/ cory<br /> 07. driving alone for the first time<br /> 08. seeing my brother for the first time<br /> 09. my first kiss with cory<br /> 1O. Baltimore field trip 98<br /> 11. singing on stage with my GE girls<br /> 12. getting my tattoo<br /> 13. spending Christmas with granddaddy before he passed</p> <p><STRONG>12 H0BBiES</STRONG><br /> 01. singing<br /> 02. writing<br /> 03. reading<br /> 04. politics<br /> 05. cleaning<br /> 06. xanga<br /> 07. bowling<br /> 08. watching movies<br /> 09. going to walmart – dude I love walmart<br /> 1O. going out to eat<br /> 11. going to the beach<br /> 12. being around kids</p> <p><STRONG>11 FAV0RiTE PLACES T0 SH0P</STRONG><br /> 01. walmart lol<br /> 02. target<br /> 03. lane bryant<br /> 04. dillards<br /> 05. hechts<br /> 06. jc pennys<br /> 07. timberland<br /> 08. bath and body works<br /> 09. yankee candle<br /> 1O. the cleaning aisle in farm fresh<br /> 11. American eagle</p> <p><STRONG>1O THiNGS AB0UT Y0U PHYSiCALLY</STRONG><br /> 01. I have 9 peircings… haha in my ears<br /> 02. I have one tattoo<br /> 03. I have a scar under my chin from busting it open<br /> 04. I have really big boobs… lol<br /> 05. I have a ghetto booty<br /> 06. I have wavy thick brown hair<br /> 07. I have freckles everywhere<br /> 08. I have really long nails…<br /> 09. I’m knock kneed<br /> 1O. I have pretty eyes</p> <p><STRONG>09 THiNGS Y0U CAN'T STAND</STRONG><br /> 01. racists<br /> 02. people who claim they are poor but go and buy the outrageous shit<br /> 03. people who think george w. bush is a upstanding citizen<br /> 04. people who think we really have a reason to be in iraq<br /> 05. paris hilton<br /> 06. Lindsay lohan<br /> 07. people who talk during movies<br /> 08. people who turn without a blinker<br /> 09. big girls who have boyfriends/husbands</p> <p><STRONG>08 FAV0RiTE SH0WS</STRONG><br /> 01. friends<br /> 02. frasier<br /> 03. everybody loves raymond<br /> 04. the real world<br /> 05. inferno II<br /> 06. true life<br /> 07. family ties<br /> 08. newlyweds</p> <p><STRONG>07 FAV0RiTE PLACES</STRONG><br /> 01. nyc<br /> 02. orlando<br /> 03. williamsburg<br /> 04. jamestown<br /> 05. va beach<br /> 06. mary kays<br /> 07. anywhere that’s fun</p> <p><STRONG>06 FAV0RiTE C0L0RS</STRONG><br /> 01. baby blue<br /> 02. navy blue<br /> 03. green<br /> 04. red<br /> 05. purple<br /> 06. gray</p> <p><STRONG>05 C00L NAMES</STRONG><br /> 01. jeremiah isaac<br /> 02. Geneva nichole<br /> 03. Wesley Weldon<br /> 04. Emma Marie<br /> 05. Jude Lee</p> <p><STRONG>04 G0ALS iN LiFE</STRONG><br /> 01. finish college<br /> 02. be a child counselor<br /> 03. marry a sexy, smart, funny, romantic, southern boy<br /> 04. have tons of babies</p> <p><STRONG>03 BAD HABiTS</STRONG><br /> 01. smoking<br /> 02. crying<br /> 03. drinking</p> <p><STRONG>02 HER0ES</STRONG><br /> 01. daddy<br /> 02. nana</p> <p><STRONG>01 QU0TE Y0U LiVE BY</STRONG><br /> 01. life is what happens to you when you’re busy making plans – john lennon<br />

yeah i'm really gonna go... so i'll holla at you people later... much love xoxo

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