i felt the need for the layout change... and for the old faithful readers... you probably recognize this layout a little too well... haha

this is my favorite

[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "i think she has sweaty purple ear syndrome! ::touches my ear:: OH MY GOD feel how hot her ear is!!!" - jaz, joking me for being on the phone too long last night

[ xangsta ] :: ThatOneSlutUKnow - last day to go check her out...

[ charlie brown saturdays ] :: the peanut gallery...

well anyways... havent done much today either... i know i'm such a boring person... basically i'm gluton for punishment...

i'm in a rather BAD mood right now... because i was suppose to be having lunch with a friend of mine and i havent heard anything from this friend... and it was the friend's idea to go out to lunch and now i'm being stood up... well i got a trick for their ass...

i feel slow, kinda outta it... like i'm missing something... i feel like i'm not up on stuff now... i dunno where this feeling is coming from.  i think it's all in my head cause i get in these moods... anyways unfortunately i'm not doing anything tonight... i'm thinking bowling sounds good right about now cause i need to unlease some anger out on my ball...

anyways last night we went to applebees cause i love applebees... i dunno what it is about that place but i phein to go there... so jaz, sade, and i went and they sat there and joked around while i ate... cause i was in a strange craving for chicken fingers and french fries... our waitress had to be the dumbest girl alive... and all jaz could do was joke her the whole time... then sade is so desperately trying to hook me up with the other waiter named .... ::drumroll:: .... james... i love that name.  anyways it was pretty fun... then we went up to blockbuster cause i was in hopes of buying napoleon dynamite... but it was like 21 bucks and i know i could get it cheaper somewhere else.  so that was the end of that.

then we had a discussion on children and babies... and how i'll probably be the last one with kids because i want them so bad... yeah i want kids bad.  and maybe i will be the last one to have my children cause i'm not going bring my children in a situation where they dont need to be in. cause i'm not about to go marry any man that asks me... and shack up right then and there... i'm sorry but lets be married for awhile. lets be financially set. lets be emotionally good with ourselves and each other before we take on the biggest challenge we will face together.  i refuse to let having children turn my life upside down.  i want my children to turn my life right side up.

anyways that made me a little upset too... so i'm done... i'll update tomorrow... much love xoxo

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "marital status? happy. hehehe" - me, reading someone's profile

[ xangsta ] :: ThatOneSlutUKnow

[ new subs ] :: xbumblebeax, if_onlyx - taynx... i'm so happy lish is back... i missed her

[ flashback friday ] :: wild 24 hours...

click here to read 05.09.04

this was a very interesting post and i remember this day like it was yesterday... i was so full of emotions... my brother, justin, tried to spend the night... and stayed up the whole night crying which drove me insane lol... and then my grandfather passed out in church, and all i wanted was cory to come go "it's ok, calm down".  i'm still kinda like that... whenever i'm so upset that i'm crying an ocean... there is only one person that could lift me up and make me feel better.  thats cory. he doesnt really do anything spectacular.  he's just himself.  but yeah... and it was mother's day and stuff like that... weird. i came to the realization that i didnt want kids until like 25... haha. and the funny part is... ericka and i had just gotten to know each other cause she left me a comment... weird.  it's been over a year E! haha well... yea

ok so what have a done today? not a damn thing LMAO...

i better enjoy the 7 comments i got last post cause here comes the weekend and comments plummet on the weekends... haha

i love you... you know who you are... and if you dont then umm... haha well i dunno what to tell you lol

talked to andrew on the phone today... cool dude... think he's gonna be my boat boy buddy... i already have a marine buddy... and an air force buddy... now i need army...

well i think i'm gonna jump in the shower and stuff of that nature... go chill with my peeps in the streets... (jaz - i'm from the streets of sydney! i will put you in the ground! LMAO) ok sorry i'm in a very weird quirky odd mood right now... and it's killing me... it really is killing me... lol i'm kinda in that mood (horny... gosh) too but i wont go into detail with that... i need to go... this is driving me insane lol much love xoxo

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "Squeal bag! Squealster! Remington Squeal!" - jimmy from the whole ten yards

[ xangsta ] :: ThatOneSlutUKnow

[ dis or dat thursday ] :: i deliver, you dish...

oh yea... e'rybody better know who this cat is... cause he's a lunatic.  (no i dont mean he's crazy) you may know him for his poppin club songs and his new role in the longest yard next to adam sandler and chris rock.  yea kids, grab your band aids... it's nelly.
 

[ mood ] ::  do they have a face for SICK???

[ quote ] :: "the only upside to being sick is losing the weight..." - me, talking to ebony this morning

[ xangsta ] :: ThatOneSlutUKnow

[ a waste of time wednesday ] :: quizzes... yea html codes... woo hoo

The PJ's You Are Most Like: Underwear You enjoy the simple things in life and aren't hard to please You have an understated, easy sexyness that men love And you're confident enough to pull it off - without being overbearing What Kind of PJ's Are You? Take This Quiz Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

hey everyone... i actually have enough strength to sit up at the computer... ugh

yeah unfortunately i have the flu... i woke up yesterday and i was sick as a dog... i slept a total of like 20 hours yesterday lol... i hate being sick and it seems like i always am... i need to boost up my immune system or something cause i cant take this anymore... anyways i have the chills and the sweats... i feel nasauea even tho i dont have to throw up... ugh god... i really hate being sick... i'm hungry but i'm afraid i'll throw up... which i doubt i will cause if i havent thrown up what i've drank i doubt i will... when i get sick enough to throw up... i dont hold anything... so i think i'm good for eating... i dunno... my stomach hurts, my neck hurts, my back hurts... ugh

i'd love to go out and have fun...

i'd really like a cigarette too but i dont think thats gonna happen for another day or two... when i'm sick i refuse to smoke... it complicates it more...

anyways... i'm gonna go around and give ya'll love, try to eat, and then go to sleep... much love xoxo

<3 jay

[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "Forgiveness is a gift of high value. Yet its cost is nothing." - Betty Smith

[ xangsta ] :: ThatOneSlutUKnow

[ new subs ] :: phantomchaos, ThatOneSlutUKnow, WastedAway1 (thats mary kay by the way)

[ extra ] :: HELP THE TATER GET AROUND THE USA!!! CLICK HERE

[ random xangan monday ] :: ch-ch-check it out...

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read my profile sign my give me a kiss! ur name Rebecca Moore Country: United States Metro: Chicago whats in ur purse? cell,gloss,hope hottest hanson Taylor, and Zac, and Ike. lol. favrit song take five AIM: ih8jamesjackson Yahoo: oolovebunnyoo Member Since: 2/10/2005

[ survey tuesday ] :: nonsense and no sense

[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "i just figured it out... it's because he has a small dick..." - mary kay, talking about adrian

[ xangsta ] :: ThatOneSlutUKnow - she writes some very deepy intellectual stuff...

[ new subs ] :: SweetMixedStuff - this girl is cool as hell... so see her...

[ the sunday seven ] :: copy and paste into a comment

do you know what it's like to be used?

who do you miss a lot?

what is your biggest sin (glutony, lust, jealously, etc...)?

do you practice any religion?

what artist do you love the most?

do you believe in karma?

what is your political standpoint?

well i apologize for not updating but it had been a rather busy and rough weekend to say the very least... i really dont even feel like updating but i guess it's a good therapy right now so i'm just gonna let it all hang out...

lets see... wednesday i was being the perfect gf and took adrian to the beach... how romantic am i? psh. romantic yeah... whatever... anyways i dont remember much from thursday... friday... hmm friday was possibly the worse day ever... i once again was being the perfect gf and suprised adrian when he got out of school... then we left... and p.lane and i went and got some bra's from lane bryant which i need to take 2 back because they are push ups and my big mamajamas keep popping out... haha then we went to p.f.changs... good... then... i like some big idiot forgot googy... i cant believe i did that... and i felt like such an idiot... then we drove down to oceana to see andi at her job... her and p did my make up really great... i still felt horrible about the baby and i thought seeing adrian would make all of that better... no... it made it worse... he broke up with me right there at his job... basically i'm too fat for him and he cant look past that... which hurts... i know i'm big but damn i aint a fuckin block... and i'm losing weight in the first place... oh well... you cant tell no one that know... cause they are fuckin hard headed... he told me he has feelings for me tho and he didnt want to lead me on... which i then said "any further you mean..." i thought a great deal about the situation and as much as i would like to be with him and as much as i like him... i really guess he isnt the person for me... he's superficial, materialistic, and he has no plans of staying in VA... i'm sorry but i am NOT leavin the hampton roads area... so moving right along...

i went and saw granddaddy yesterday... i didnt cry tho... and i was very proud of myself... i miss him so much...

anyways i texted cory and he texted me back... wow... prayer works thats all i gotta say... i miss him too... but thats a trivial thing...

anyways in the love dept... i'm kinda bummed... because i was rejected and that shit is a bitch... but a few posts back i mentioned whether or not i should give a certain person a second chance... because this certain person... is... and wants... everything i want... so i'm gonna see where that leads me... i guess i should stop calling this person someone and just call them by their god given name... yeah... i'm talking about justin.  i know some things got fucked up but i dunno.  it may work out for the very best and it may not... only god knows and only time will tell.  if it's meant to be it will be and if not... then one more heartache to move on from...

i know what i'm about to say is rather gross... but i share a lot of things on xanga so i really dont care... it's a part of life... i have a hemorrhoid... yeah... and i dont wish this on anyone... cause it's the most painful thing in the history of the world... it's not big... matter of fact it's not even a serious issue... but i looked it up... and compared to some people i have a walk in the park... so i'm thanking my lucky stars... ugh... gross..

PERFECT BOYFRIEND/HUSBAND!<br /> His Look: preppy, ghetto, bohemian<br /> Name: always thought I’d marry a James… but I see myself with a “J” guy<br /> Hair Colour: preferably brown… red heads too<br /> Hair Style (long, short, bowl cut, cornrows, etc) : umm haha laughing about the bowl cut… (the bowl cut club lol)… but seriously… short but long enough for me to run my hands through<br /> Eye colour: I like blue eyes…<br /> Age: 20-23<br /> Height: taller… much taller<br /> Size: skinny<br /> Body build: bean pole<br /> Ethnicity: white… which is American or European… so whatever<br /> Glasses? Hmm sexy<br /> Piercings? Not too many…<br /> big ol booty? or no? yea I like butts… but no butts are cute too lol<br /> label huh<br /> His Mind? Intelligent, deep, open-minded<br /> what does he want be/do when she grows up? Any that makes descent money<br /> Can he speak another language, if yes what? german<br /> Can he read music? Yes…<br /> Can he read guitar tabs? yes<br /> Can he play guitar? yes<br /> piano? OH YES<br /> the drums? He dabbled lol<br /> some other instrument? harmonica<br /> Can he write music? Of course… he’s a musician…<br /> Will he write songs about you? I hope<br /> Will he write poems about you? I hope<br /> Will he be artistic in some way? Of course<br /> Will he "blind you with science?" haha oh yea…</p> <p>His Style<br /> Party hopper or stay at home? stay at home<br /> Straight A student or Drop out? straight a<br /> Does he have a best friend? Sure<br /> is it you? Cute…<br /> Is he straight or bi? straight<br /> Religious? what type? protestant<br /> Virgin till marriage or till "the rite time"? right time…<br /> Should he be able to bake or cook? that would be great<br /> Is it okay for him to have a lot of girl pals? It’s alright…<br /> Out-going or shy?: in between<br /> Should he watch chick-flicks?: yea…<br /> Would he be a smoker?: it would help being that I am<br /> drinking?: occassionally<br /> cursing? Not too much<br /> does he dance? Only slowing dance with me…<br /> soccer? hmm<br /> baseball? YES<br /> basketball? It’s cool<br /> rugby? whatever<br /> golf? Ahhh making me think of someone…<br /> does he drag race? no<br /> does he have a "pimped up" ride? How about pimped out? And I don’t care<br /> Can he surf? sure<br /> skateboard? Sure<br /> snowboard? sure<br /> Would he have an accent? A southern one… or irish…<br /> Anything else? nah</p> <p>You and Him *last part!*<br /> Does he kiss on the first date?: yea but nothing to heavy<br /> Where does he take you? To plays and symphonys<br /> Does he pay? sometimes<br /> Would he lay uder the stars with you and spout random philosophies? Yeah…<br /> Would he use endearments? from time to time<br /> Would you hold hands? All the time<br /> Would you ever stay the nite at his place? Mmm yea<br /> Would he give you flowers/candy or a big expensive gift. Random things… maybe one big gift every once in awhile…<br /> Would he walk you to your door at the end of the nite? Of course<br /> How would he propose? he would make me dinner and then pamper me before asking me... of course on one knee<br /> Lastly, after you meet, get hitched, etc. What do u name your kids? Jeremiah Isaac, Geneva Nichole, Wesley Weldon, Emma Marie, Jude Lee, Stormy Roxanne, Justin Franklin<br />

anyways i'm gonna go... i'm gonna clean my room a bit and then go to bed... i have a party to go to in the afternoon... so i'll catch ya'll later much love xoxo

<3 jay

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[ mood ] ::

i'm sorry i havent updated in a while... i've been busy with things... and just stupid crap like that... and it's not like i've been having a ton of fun either... so basically adrian and i broke up... i dont even wanna go into the reasons... because THEY ARE BULLSHIT... and they are really funny reasons... right now i feel SO stupid for believing that i could get the guy in the end... this makes me start to think that god is still working on me and someone else... i wont even say his name... but back to adrian... i told him last night "you're gonna see... and you're gonna be sooooo sorry... a day will come and you will think back and say 'damn i wish i had stayed with her...' and maybe you'll be smart before i do... cause if i beat you to being smart you'll be one sorry man... cause i'ma tell you to holla back" and he said "i know... i know you're gonna come to me later and i'll want all of you and you'll tell me to drop dead... i know this... and i'll be missing out... but i hope it doesnt happen..." yea whatever... he's got feelings for me... but apparently feelings dont cover everything

but i really dont feel like writing anything else... i've spend this whole morning crying... even tho it's kinda late cause we broke up yesterday... but whatever... i'll holla much love

<3 jay

forget about all this other crap... i dont feel like copy and pasting

[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "yea we both have girlfriends named jennifer.... and then we have some hoes on the side!" - gary, talking with adrian about me and jennifer

[ xangsta ] :: h8thevil - i'm so mad he hasnt said anything... lol

[ new subs ] :: none  what a huge suprise lol

[ a waste of time wednesday ] :: quizzes with html codes too!

You Were Actually Born Under:

You are solid, methodical, and you do things right the first time. Even when no one else does, you always believe in yourself. You tend to see the world in black and white, right or wrong. A good memory and eye for details means you tend to thrive at near impossible tasks. You are most compatible with a Snake or Rooster.

You Should Have Been Born Under:

You are totally loyal, faithful, and honest. However, you don't trust others to be as ethical as you are! Straight forward and direct, you really aren't one for small talk. You are a great listener - and an agreeable companion when you're in a good mood! You are most compatible with a Tiger or Horse.

well... nothing big happened...

i didnt win XOTM ... i'm really upset about that... oh well theres always next month...

i cleaned my room... woo hoo... i mean i cleaned it... i love cleaning... i think you guys get it now LMAO

 still trippin off adrian... lol

hung out with jaz and p.lane tonight... it was fun... p is over here now cause the 4 of us (you should already know those 4) are going to the gym in the morning and getting our healthy sweat on LMAO woo thats funny... and for those that now me... going to the gym is a big deal cause i hate to work out... and i hate to sweat... so yayee for me...

anyways i'm about to get off here for real... time to go... much love xoxo

<3 jay

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "what do kmart and micheal jackson have in common? they both have half off boys pants!" - stu, my step-dad

[ xangsta ] :: h8thevil - yea thats my xanga boo

[ new subs ] :: BLAH

[ survey tuesday ] :: nonsense and no sense

THE HATES.<br /> .what real name would you hate to be called?.: jennifer (my real name)<br /> .if you died, which place would you hate to be buried at?.: in a cemetery cause I wanna be cremated<br /> .which skittle tastes the worst?.: orange and red<br /> .what is the worst place to go on a date?.: umm a monster truck show<br /> .most obnoxious "clique" out there and why?.: gwen stefani’s girls lol and paris hilton’s crew<br /> .least favorite outfit that you still wear to this day?.: umm my jeans that are way too big for me<br /> .most hated book ever read and why?.: umm I’d say… Beowulf… </p> <p>.THE LOVES.<br /> .favorite fast food meal?.: chicken nugget meal @ mcdonalds<br /> .what color is your most loved hair brush?.: green… I stole it from daddy<br /> .age range of your t.v./movie crush?.: what? I don’t get it<br /> .favorite type of dinosaur?.: triceratops<br /> .favorite scene with your t.v./movie crush in it?.: j.t.t. in man house of the house saying “ooo cooties”<br /> .your most loved pair of underwear?.: my tommy Hilfiger thongs<br /> .favorite time to go outside?.: afternoon… when the sun is going down…</p> <p>.THE EMBARRASSING.<br /> .worst pair of shoes you own?.: black reeboks<br /> .most obnoxious thing you've ever done in a store?.: faked a british accent<br /> .worst thing you've ever done in a restaurant?.: cussed the manager out<br /> .what's your worst habit?.: smoking… I really need to quit<br /> .favorite song you'd die if anyone else found out?.: umm… nothing… I’m not ashamed<br /> .weirdest turn-on you have?.: cleaning…<br /> .most sexy cartoon character?.: Johnny bravo LOL </p> <p>.THE GUILTS.<br /> .meanest thing you ever said to a friend?.: you’re a slut<br /> .favorite same-sex pairing?.: what exactly does that mean? Pick a couple? I dunno…<br /> .favorite food to gorge out on?.: bread…<br /> .worst thing you've ever done in school and got away with?.: I’d rather not say…<br /> .worst outfit/item of clothing you got away with wearing at school?.: nothing I’m not outrageous<br /> .longest time you've taken a shower/bath?.: 2 hours lol<br /> .what item do you waste the most?.: energy</p> <p>.THE AMUSING.<br /> .funniest thing a friend has ever done?.: umm… I dunno they do a lot of crazy things… jasmine trying to grab the straw with her tongue at olive garden while this dude was watching her lol… Carson trying to suck out of a straw without putting his lips on the straw<br /> .best thing you've ever thrown out of a car?.: alcohol… because I don’t ride in cars with alcohol lol<br /> .favorite movie to make fun of?.: umm ghost “why are you doing this to me?” she asks that like 50 times during the movie<br /> .worst thing you've done in your job/community service.?: nothing…<br /> .a time you peed your pants from laughing so hard.?: a while back<br /> .stupidest thing you've done to insult someone.?: not stupid… it was rather out there<br /> .worst movie cover ever.?: umm I really don’t know…<br />

well lets see... crazy day... crazy...

i had a minor argument with a very important person... and i apologize for being a bitch... you'll always be special to me... remember that

well like scheduled i went to the gardens with adrian... it was really fun... i had a blast... we talked about how it was like when we were kids and we were like one with the bugs and birds today... haha anyone who knows me knows i'm not really much of a nature person... but i actually like being at the gardens... anyways to make a long story short... my romantic ways scored big time... and i landed the guy... yep... adrian and i are official...

then i went to grandma's and got my grub on...

went to see mama and justin... that was funny... good times good times...

then i went bowling with ebony, jaz, carson, and p.lane... it was SUPER fun... i bowled a 188 and then i pulled my butt muscle and threw a game... i bowled a 99... my butt is in some real pain right now... LMAO

WHAT A DORK I AM... LOOK AT WHAT I'M LISTENING TO... YES FORMER MUSIC ED MAJOR IN THE HOUSE

but other than that... i'm rather tired... which sucks... so i'm off to bed... much love xoxo

<3 jay

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