[ mood ] ::  

[ quote ] :: "i couldnt get up... cause basically... i couldnt feel my legs!" - me, laughing about friday night

[ xangsta ] :: LilCutieMunchkin - awesome girl... a fellow monarch <3

[ new subs ] :: none

[ random xangan tuesday ] :: try and say that 3 times fast LOL

xxyoursinsxx read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Indira Esparza Gender: Female Interests: tu papi =] Expertise: killing with knifes =] Occupation: Student AIM: Go Power Ranger4 MSN: supergirl_120 Yahoo: indi_120 Member Since: 12/22/2004 wanna be a random xangan?? well it would help if you were subscribed, and i was subscribed back to you... much like the xangsta of the week ________________________________________________________________ anyways... so today was pretty much uneventful in every way... i spent the majority of the day cleaning my room and doing laundry... i tackled my bedroom... tomorrow will be dedicated to the bathroom... and the remainder of the week will be devoted to my study/office/second bedroom... haha yayee nichole posted... i'm so happy... i missed my xanga role model... go to her site and tell her how happy you are for her... she's moved out with her bf and they are engaged!!! i'm so happy for my xanga sissie so jennifer (my cousin) calls me around 11:15 and tells me that adrian called her all fucked up talking about me and stuff... and then she was like "i need to tell you something..." and i thought "oh god..." and i started freaking out in my head... jennifer was like "adrian said he doesnt want you to take this the wrong way and he definately doesnt want to hurt your feelings but he thinks you would the woman of his dreams if you dropped a few pounds..." ... now you might think i got offended by this... but i didnt... AT ALL... adrian and i already discussed that because he's overweight too... and we were like gonna do the weight loss together crap... some people may find what he said superficial but i agree with him... i'd be drop dead gorgeous and stunning if i lost weight, and i've lost 20 lbs as it is... and still losing... he was just being honest... and i appreciate that... he told jennifer he could see us going really far if i lost like 15-20 lbs... but funny thing is... i wanna lose like 30-40... haha i dunno... jennifer told me she's been talking to him a lot lately and everytime they get on the phone he asks her "whats jennifer doing? hows jennifer?" (yeah he calls me jennifer...  ugh no one calls me that)... jennifer said... "i think he misses you a lot..." hmm interesting... speaking of interesting... i talked to justin today... i dunno what to think about that... i'm mad i havent spoken to him in ages but i'm glad i have spoken to him... i dunno... it's crazy really... ok seriously... WHO BOUGHT ME PREMIUM??? or is this suppose to anonoymous? cause i got the email saying it was a gift, and the message... but i dunno who was being so nice... i love you lol COME FORTH YOU COWARD...  LMAO Your Political Profile Overall: 20% Conservative, 80% Liberal Social Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal Personal Responsibility: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal Fiscal Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal Ethics: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal Defense and Crime: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal How Liberal / Conservative Are You? but anyways i'm gonna go straighten my hair and then head to bed... i'm gonna tackle the bathroom tomorrow and then i'm going over jennifer's to hang out with her, gary, and adrian... everyone keep your fingers crossed... i'm off now... much love xoxo <3 jay ** if you wanna be xangsta of the week you must: a. be subscribed to me [ poeticmurder2003 @ xanga ] b. be involved in posts c. be uber cool - LMAO  - vote for me, rate & review my site... puhleeze <3 READ MY POETRY :: my_w0rds_are_like_water

[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "well fran, you met your mr. sheffield..." - jaz, talking about adrian

[ xangsta ] :: NEW LilCutieMunchkin NEW

[ new subs ] :: brownsugakisses2205, xxnate - taynx <3

[ fly monday ] :: blah

i feel like i need to change this... but i dunno... people give me pointers... i need ideas

anyways i wont put up the fly monday or thursday, friday, saturday, and sunday...

but i'll get this all up and ready tomorrow...

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anyways... you wouldnt believe the past couple of days...

thursday - well... thursday i believe i took my sensation and perception test... blah that was horrible... i dunno havent got that grade back yet... hopefully we'll see how horribly i bombed that.  i got my nails done and actually got nail art (ghetto like)... i usually dont cause i think it looks tacky... but they are like neutral colors so they arent wild and flashy... went to target and got some stuff with jaz... then jennifer calls me and tells me that adrian wants to break it off... and so we both thought it would be a good idea for me to do that first... adrian tells me that he likes me a lot and wants to have something with me..... BUT..... he doesnt want to put the effort into a relationship and that he's scared because he doesnt want to put so much into something if it wont work or get his heart broken or something of that nature...

friday - boring... really... except for spending the night at veronica's (with p.lane, ebony, & carson)... some other people were over there but they didnt stay... basically in a nutshell i got fucked up... haha which i never do... i was really out of my element for about an hour... everything and everyone was sooooo hilarious... it was fun but i'll probably never do that again... but anyways ebony and carson were up each others tail ends and i was like wtf? it was annoying as hell... i was under the impression it was a girls night thing... ooops i must have been mistaken. jennifer was calling me every 5 minutes to tell me absolutely nothing... i was aggravated... in the end it was an ok night... i guess...

saturday - i went to carolynn's wedding... and i cried like a baby.  got upset wondering why the hell carolynn is getting married and i cant get a bf.  and right before the wedding jennifer was trying to hook me up with some people and i told her flat out "i dont want to met anyone anymore...".  i was through trying to work things out... it has no purpose.  but as i was sitting there listening to the preacher and them give each other there vows it hit me.  how could god not send me someone?  love and marriage and all that mushy stuff... is all a real blessing from god.  why would god not let anyone have that chance?  and it hit me... there is someone out there for me... god knows exactly who he is... and knows exactly when we will meet (if we havent already)... and i just have to be patient.  anyways then i went home and chilled... went to walmart to get last minute mother's day cards (BAD IDEA lol)... but met up with ebony and carson... they pissed me off... so i stormed out like a child which was wrong... but i dont think that was me being rude... that was what anyone would do... there is only so much an individual can take... called jasmine crying... because basically bottom line... i'm lonely, i'm lazy, and i'm tired... jaz is my beam of support... which is funny because she's my best friend... but not like my soulmate best friends like ebony and i are... jaz takes everything i say to heart... and holds it... she doesnt understand how much she means to me... i love her so much... she's wonderful... and i hope we never grow apart...

sunday - went to church... my grandma broke down.  she kept sayin it was the first mother's day without granddaddy and it broke my heart into a million peices... how i wish i could have granddaddy here for just a day.  so i could hug him and love on him... i miss him so much.  but i know as much as i miss him and as much as my daddy, my aunt, and my uncle miss him... my grandma misses him most... i couldnt imagine losing the only man i ever loved... i couldnt imagine losing the man i had been with for over 50 years of my life... it rocks my world.  mama came to church (hell has frozen over...) she brought my buhbie and i was glad... went to dinner with my grandma and my daddy and all them.  then went by mary kay's and hung out with them.  i finally talked to adrian and i guess we have decided to be friends... and be there.  we'll hang out... do things together whenever... nothing set, just occassionally... and whenever he feels good about getting into a relationship, i'm here.

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alright i'm so sorry that had to be a freakin novel... LMAO

anyways seriously... WHO GAVE ME PREMIUM??? i love you... haha  after a semi-horrible weekend... that made me smile BIG time...

but i'm gonna go now... cause i have a big day ahead... much love xoxo

<3 jay

- vote for me, rate & review my site... puhleeze <3

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Ok I'm acting very suprised right now....

who got me premium??? i owe you... seriously... whoever it was... i love you to pieces...

sorry i havent updated lately... i've been hella busy and a few crazy things have happened which i will update on LOL... yeah some funny stuff, some sad stuff, some weird stuff... i dunno...

who got me premium???  i lub you... LMAO

i'll post after 12... technically it will be monday...

[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "well if i aint getting any i gotta give it to myself!" - me, "well you're gonna have to work for that..." - adrian, "no. YOU'RE gonna have to work for that!" - me (self explanatory LOL)

[ xangsta ] :: gina7psu

[ new subs ] :: peosh - thats jasmine's girl porsha... she's new... give her love...

[ a waste of time wednesday ] :: quizzes with html codes too

Your Birthdate: February 22

While sometimes employing unorthodox approaches, you are capable of handling large scale undertakings. You assume great responsibility and work long and hard toward completion. Often, especially in the early part of life, there is rigidity or stubbornness, and a tendency to repress feelings. Idealistic, you work for the greater good with a good deal of inner strength and charisma. An extremely capable organizer, but likely to paint with broad strokes rather than detail. You are very aware and intuitive. You are subject to a good deal of nervous tension.

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anyways ok lemme get down to the nitty gritty...

how exactly did the adrian and i thing happen?  ok ok ok i know inquiring minds want to know but havent asked... basically monday night we went out and walked around the mall... he does this sweet things where he rubs his hand up and down my back... ugh giddiness... lol anyways we left and i gave him a grand tour of norfolk, cause hes from va bch and basically has only been to va bch... he moved here from scotland when he was 9... ok anyways after about an hour of driving around... we came back to mk's and we sat in the car for a minute... we kissed... haha... then he went home... i called jennifer and she wanted to know were we dating yet... i told her i didnt know because i know he wants to take things slow... so i called him and was like "jennifer asked me a question but i couldnt answer it for her, so she'll ask you later..." and he was like "what? are we dating? i dunno i mean i want to but i'm scared... i like you a lot... i mean i have these issues with getting into a relationship... basically, yea i do want to date you" so i was like "well do it..." and he was like "alright then" ... that still didnt really answer my question and what not... so after he got out of school yesterday he met up with me and took me to chik-fila and there was a mess up with the order (i like my sandwiches with no pickles)... so he went back and told them "yeah i need to get a sandwich with no pickles... my girlfriend is allergic to pickles"... and i was like "thats not true!" and he was like "what the allergic to pickles or being my girlfriend?" and i was like "the pickles..." and then that was that... :sigh:

love is in the freakin air... which by the way congrats to drew... i couldnt be happier for you babe

BIG NEWS... there was an armed and dangerous man roaming around my area last night... cops were posted EVERYWHERE... it was crazy... mayhem... click here to read

yeah for those special people that know what i'm talking about when i start talking in code... dont mention anything about my plan up here... cause of course i dont have premium...

WHO WANTS TO BUY ME PREMIUM?? seriously? i'll feature you every post... (wow thats lame...) but still... i'm kinda desperate...

umm 3 down... 1 more to go... i have sensation and perception tomorrow... god i'm so not happy right now... i'm upset... i feel like an idiot... how did i get my grades to be this way??? i dunno... hopefully everything will work out all right... this has been a HORRIBLE semester... just gotta keep telling myself... dean's list...

ok so justin emailed me... and cussed me out.  and that really hurt my feelings cause i wasnt trying to a bitch.  i didnt email him back cause i dont want to talk to him.  but if he reads this... i didnt mean to piss you off.  this is all crazy so lets just drop everything.  i'm through with it.

and from now on i'm gonna stop talking about stupid females because i'm starting to think they want me to mention them... well honey... soak it up now cause i'm done with it... get a life. I MEAN DAMN I KNOW I'M SWEET FOR REAL AND I KNOW YOU WANNA BE LIKE ME, BUT SIMMER DOWN WITH IT. be nice and i could teach you pointers...

ok i'm done... viola... yeah... i love comments... keep them coming... much love xoxo

<3 jay

- vote for me, rate & review my site... puhleeze <3

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[ mood ] ::  Heah Heah...

[ quote ] :: "girl you better get that ex-marine loving!" - jaz

[ xangsta ] :: gina7psu

[ new subs ] :: none

[ this is jay every- tuesday ] :: Daddy's Girl

i'm not afraid to admit that i'm a big daddy's girl.  and because i am a daddy's girl, i have to live by daddy's girl laws.  curfews, check-in, restricted freedoms.  even at 20 i have a curfew and things of that nature.  it sucks at times but then i'm glad i do, because those rules have kept me out of trouble.  i get a lot of strife from friends and other people about how i have to be home early and how i have to do this and that.  but i look at it this way... i dont pay for anything.  i dont pay for my education, i dont pay for my car, i dont pay for my phone... etc.  so in return for that... my dad has set up a few rules.  and quite honestly i live in his house, so if he says be home at 2 in the afternoon, thats what i'll do.  i have respect for my father.  i hate how some people totally disregard what they're parents say. and fuss about curfews and stuff... my thing is HAVE some respect for your parents.  if they say be home at a certain time or do certain things... you better do it.  excuse my french, but if you dont like it, get the fuck out.

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so adrian and i are officially a couple... hmm yeah...  feels great, feels good

i wanted to update real quick even though i dont have much to say... actually i have plenty to say i just dont wanna go blabber about it all right now cause thats wrong and i dont wanna be a phein like i use to be ya know.

i have to study for my computer science exam... geez... i'm so not looking forward to taking that test nor am i looking forward to taking sensation and perception but i guess i gotta deal with that... i'm trying to take this academic probation thing as best as i can... it's a bad thing but i can turn it into a really good thing if i watch myself... i know pulling my GPA up and being on dean's list is a possible thing.  i know my limits and if i didnt think i could do it i would attempt to.

lemme say this though for a certain person who thinks they are being really cute making up a 10 thousand screen names... is all that neccessary?? how many xanga names do you need?? i mean damn, grow the hell up.  you have got to be one of the most childish people i've ever met in my life.  get off my nuts... i already got somebody bringing bullshit to me through xanga, i dont need you to confuse stuff... so please stop the stalker mode... thanks

alright well i'ma go... gotta study for this shit ass exam... much love xoxo

<3 jay

- vote for me, rate & review my site... puhleeze <3

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[ mood ] ::  going on a date tonight do da do da...

[ quote ] :: "damn that chicken was bomb... i'ma be talking about that chicken all night!" - p-lane

[ xangsta ] :: gina7psu

[ new subs ] ::  yea

[ fly monday ] :: hookin ya up...

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yeah i have a date tonight... but probably not tuesday... which is whack but i dont care...  adrian is such a sweetheart... :sigh: hehe me so happy right now...

tell me why rodger calls me at the weirdest times to irritate the CRAP outta me... yes... irritate...

the carnival was FUN... until they closed that shit down all early... i was PISSED... no fair! hopefully... i'll be able to go back before they leave...

so i took my exam for psychology and the law... i'm feeling confident about that class... thats the only class i really really really like... all the other ones can burn in ODU hell... along with the professor... jesus i'm being mean today...

well i guess someone got their email... and thats good...

i think i'm gonna go clean out my car cause were gonna take mine... cause i wanna show off my ultra cool driving skills to him... haha... i'm a great driver... ask any of my friends... i'm cool... haha

well yeah i'm peace out yo... drop those epropz ya heard... HAHAHA LOL i'm just playin... i'd love to come home to comments tho...  much love xoxo

<3 jay

- vote for me, rate & review my site... puhleeze <3

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[ mood ] ::  yes... it's still not going away lol

[ quote ] :: "you're the girl in the library..." - adrian, probably the sweetest thing he said all night... i'll explain

[ xangsta ] :: !!NEW!! gina7psu !!NEW!!

[ new subs ] :: edie2006 - thanks so much sweetheart!

[ the sunday seven ] :: copy & paste into a comment

who was your first kiss?

it sucked didnt it? (LMAO)

whats your favorite mtv show?

which one would you be on: road rules or real world?

what do you think is your best feature?

are you a neat freak or a complete slob?

dont you think i should make some more interesting questions?

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    hehe... ok so i must explain the quote above... adrian and i were talking on the phone and he was talking about how hard it was to find a nice good girl... he said nowaday it seems the only way to meet a girl is to meet her in the club, but he said thats not the type of girl he wants... so i asked him "where would you find the perfect girl?" and he was like "i dunno... the library"... then later he asked me to label him and then i asked him to label me... and he said "you're the girl in the library..." awww lol

ok anyways... i'm over it...

ok i'm gonna study in a minute and then i think we're all going to the carnival tonight... fun fun fun...

but there is one thing i wanted to touch on before that...

april was child abuse prevention month and i meant to do a little something on it but i kept forgeting... so here i am writing something on it... because so what it's may... child abuse prevention should be EVERY month...

STOP CHILD ABUSE NOW

 

millions of children fall victims to sexual, physical, and emotional abuse each year... just think of those children that never come forward

 

it is time to step up to the plate as members of the community and end this nonsense. children are literally our "future" and hope for a better tomorrow.  we cannot cash in on that hope without treating them as individuals.

 

if you have been abused or know someone who has been... please help stop the cycle of violence.  come forward and report the incident.  it is up to us to end the cycle of violence.

 

   

 

anyways... that was just a little something something i wanted to write... kinda wack but whatever... the reason isnt wack... so yeah... i feel better now...

 

i failed psychology of sex...  ::literally crying:: i wasnt expecting that...

 

well anyways i'm gonna go study... much love xoxo

 

<3 jay

 

** if you wanna be xangsta of the week you must:

a. be subscribed to me [ poeticmurder2003 @ xanga ]

b. be involved in posts

c. be uber cool - LMAO

 

 

- vote for me, rate & review my site... puhleeze <3

READ MY POETRY :: my_w0rds_are_like_water

[ mood ] ::  love is many splendid thing... lol

 

[ quote ] :: "WHAT?? HOW DO YOU HAVE A JAY-Z CD AND A NAS CD IN THE SAME CAR?? thats not right... what else do you have here... wait a minute... WHAT?? NO HOW DO YOU HAVE A JA RULE CD AND A 50 CENT CD?? thats against the rules of hip hop..." - me, talking to adrian in his car lol

 

[ xangsta ] :: EMMAgizer_Bunny

 

[ new subs ] :: none but OH WELL

 

[ charlie brown saturdays ] :: haha look it's the peanut gallery lol get it?? lol

 

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so umm…i was looking at my tracker thingie… and I thought it would be really funny to name the people that visit my site the most… so without further adieu… here is

 

THE POETICMURDER2003 HIT AWARDS

 

thejoz - 196 HITS TO MY SITE

the0neandonlyj – 169 HITS TO MY SITE

gina7psu – 137 HITS TO MY SITE

lalaine19rn – 118 HITS TO MY SITE

loloelizabeth – 108 HITS TO MY SITE

 

thanks guys!!! keep on clickin…

 

so yeah… i took my psychology of sex exam yesterday… blah… i really don’t know how i did.i’m so scared.i know i’m on academic probation but i don’t want to make less than a c in that class or i have to take it over (major/minor policy)… maybe i could have focused more if the girl behind me wasn’t so interested in talking about the SPIDER near our chairs… needless to say i freaked out… i though he might be crawling on me… so i tried to hurry and do my answers because if i see the spider on me… i’ll piss my pants, faint, become unconscious, all of the above… hmm damnit i should have tried that… maybe i would have become exempt… but then i finish my exam only to see him scurry away from my chair… i still not nauseas but it was all good…

 

this is just a little comment i needed to address... apparently people think i’m stupid… no i’m not… you are… exactly why you got the big OKIE DOKIE

 

had to do this...

 

Your #1 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #3 Match: INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #4 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #5 Match: ENTJ

The Executive You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others. Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise. Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow. You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence. You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

how scary??? how true???

 

went to see adrian at his job last night… :sigh: he’s great… i really really really like him… and from what jennifer says he really really really likes me too… ahh lol i really see this going somewhere… and thats great… that i can have a real relationship for once…

anyways i need to be getting ready… jaz and I are going out to lunch, to get plane tickets, and then to see my baby… so I’m gonna go… much love xoxo

 

<3 jay

 

- vote for me, rate & review my site... puhleeze <3

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theres a protected post below... it's about some family stuff going on...

i just dont want to publish it cause a few of my family members have internet access and i dont want to be able to read it...

it's just dealing with my mom and brother type of stuff...

if you arent on my protected i'm sorry... i only can have 10 people...

[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "if your high school parking lot was full of 1986 caprice classics with shiney rims and an alpine system, you might have went to a ghetto high school" - andi... classic...

[ xangsta ] :: EMMAgizer_Bunny

[ new subs ] :: themoments_theseconds_thehours, natexx - taynx <3

[ flashback friday ] :: "april 30, 2004 - one wild night in norfolk"

yes the newest of the new feature... so i go back to an old post and say a little something on it...

click here to read 04.30.04

well in regards to that post... it's funny cause i remember the WHOLE day too... i love the way i use to post back then... it was just straight to the point lol... anyways for those wondering dolla dolla bill ya'll (i named him that cause i got him for only a dollar) was my goldfish that i won at the carnival... he died a week later due to an illness called ick... i was crushed, he was my baby  ... but i do remember wanting to write so much more about the cory situation but at that time cory was a regular visitor to my site and i didnt want to give him the wrong impression.  i didnt want him to think i was stressing him or anything, which i was totally stressin him then... i just let it go. and i also didnt want to go into details because i really didnt want to go on for 10 hours talking about the talk i had with tory, which was about her hot steamy nights during spring break that I DID NOT APPROVE OF. but other than that... i remember that whole day... man... i miss last year... i miss hanging with p alot and i miss seeing cory (thats funny... i use to wish i wouldnt see him LOL)... but not in the same sense... i dunno... a lot of things have changed...

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89% of you LOVE kelly clarkson...

(whoever dissed her sucks major booty... j/k )

anyways... talked to adrian some more today... so far so good...

so umm yeah... today has been one HELL of a day...

ron found out he has diabetes... please pray for him...

on the justin situation... i'm through... i really want to know the truth but i've come to the realization that i may never find it so... no use in beating someone up about it... if it ever comes out then ok but honestly i want no part in it...

this is for kay91 who wanted to know how to have the html box in your posts (without it become the actually post) lol... here is the code... i hope it works for you...

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yes ericka... you are my COOLEST subscriber... and nikki too... and jennifer... and aimee... and noel... and scott... and rachel... oh shoot... forget it... ya'll all are great... i love ya'll

PreLude .. just the basics<br /> Name: jennifer nichole<br /> Age: 20<br /> Birthday: 02/22/85<br /> Today's date: 04/29<br /> School: old dominion university<br /> Location: 757<br /> Orientation: straight</p> <p>Chapter One .. your past<br /> Where were you born?: 757<br /> Who did you like in 1st grade? reading...<br /> Where was your first school?: sherwood forest elem<br /> Who was your first bf/gf?: bobby ellis<br /> Where/When was your first kiss?: 13 behind the church<br /> What was your first word?: dada<br /> Who was the last friend you fought with?: umm ebony<br /> What was the last thing you bought?: cigarettes<br /> What was the last thing you regret?: letting people slip away</p> <p>Chapter Two .. your present<br /> What are you wearing?: flannel bottoms, odu baby blue shirt<br /> What are you watching?: the screen<br /> What are you listening to?: the keyboard<br /> What are you eating?: nada<br /> What are you drinking?: sweet tea<br /> What are you doing today?: today?? studying<br /> How does your hair look right now?: messy<br /> Are you talking to anyone right now? no<br /> If so who?: eh<br /> Who was the last person you talked to?: daddy<br /> Who are you iming?: NO ONE jeez<br /> Whats your email and/or sn?: jnrash85</p> <p>Chapter Three .. your future<br /> Do you plan to go to college?: already there<br /> If so where?: where i always wanted to be<br /> What do you wanna be when you grow up?: social worker<br /> Do u wanna get married?: oh yes<br /> Do u wanna have children?: yes yes yes yes<br /> If so what would you name them?: jeremiah isaac, geneva nichole, wesley weldon, emma marie, jude lee, stormy roxanne, justin franklin (i have backups lol)<br /> Do u wanna be like your parents?: like my dad<br /> If not why?:<br /> What age do you wanna have sex?: hmm too late<br /> What's the next school you will be attending?: odu grad school<br /> What are you doing next Friday?: who cares<br /> Wanna go out? lol jk..: hahahahaha </p> <p>Chapter Four .. Favorites<br /> Color: baby blue<br /> Food: italian<br /> Song: mr. brightside<br /> Movie: disney, moulin rouge, pretty woman... blah<br /> Actress: julia roberts<br /> Actor: tom hanks<br /> Singer: taylor hanson<br /> Rapper: jay-z.... the muthafuckin greatest<br /> Band: hanson, maroon 5, keane, killers<br /> Store: lane bryant, american eagle, old navy<br /> Website: mine lol<br /> Car: 03 hyundai elantra<br /> Fast Food Place: McNasty's lol<br /> Cartoon: house of mouse</p> <p>Chapter Five .. this or that<br /> blue/green: blue<br /> plaid/striped: plaid<br /> polka dotted/glittery: polka dotted<br /> 50 cent/eminem: eminem<br /> short/tall: tall<br /> cell phone/fax: cell<br /> printer/scanner: printer<br /> digital camera/camera fone: digital camera<br /> verizon/t-mobile: t-mobile even tho i dont have either<br /> sprite/fanta: sprite<br /> shorts/capris: capris<br /> skirt/skort: skirt<br /> bologna/salami: bologna<br /> Notorious BIG/Big Pun: ugh... BIG<br /> My Chemical Romance/Matchbook Romance: my chemical romance</p> <p>Chapter Six .. the opposite sex<br /> What color hair?: i like blondes and redheads<br /> What color eyes?: blue... ahhh<br /> Short or Tall?: tall<br /> What sports should he/she play?: doesnt matter<br /> Do you want him/her to be popular?: doesnt matter<br /> Does his/her sterotype or religion matter to you?: yes<br /> Hollister or Abercrombie?: who cares<br /> Adidas or Converse?: dont care<br /> Nike or Iversons?: NIKE<br /> Do you care if he's rich or not?: don't care at all<br /> Piercings or tattoos?: i'm down<br /> Does none of this stuff matter with the perfect guy?: basically</p> <p>Chapter Seven .. school life<br /> What school are you currently going to?: didnt i answer this like 50 million times... ODU<br /> What grade are you in?: STB junior in college<br /> Do you like your school?: it's ok... i guess<br /> How many students are in your school?: 20,000<br /> What are you doing at school at noon?: in class<br /> Where did you go to kindergarten?: UGH sherwood forest elem<br /> What was the name of your third grade teacher?: mrs. malbrough<br /> Do you get in trouble at school?: nope<br /> Are you a loser at school?: nope<br /> Are you well known?: thats kinda hard in college<br /> Do you get good grades?: nope LOL thats not funny<br /> Do you write notes during class?: nope</p> <p>Chapter Eight .. friends<br /> Who are your best friends?: ebony, p, jaz, andi, mk, tory, jennifer, amber, veronica, v-ron<br /> Who are your best friends of the opposite sex?: rodger, kevin, kris... maybe cory... not really best friend tho<br /> When was your last fight?: i dunno<br /> Have you ever hid something from a friend?: yes<br /> Have you ever lied to a friend?: yes but not malicious<br /> Who are some of your other friends?: thats it lol<br /> Which one of your friends is the..<br /> craziest? hmmm<br /> cutest? ebony<br /> loudest? p<br /> tallest? cory<br /> shortests? ebony<br /> most athletic? umm kris?<br /> hottest? ebony<br /> ugliest? haha no comment<br /> luckiest? andi<br /> honest? jaz<br /> openminded? ebony<br /> Who do you have the most fun with? p.lane<br /> Who do have the most inside jokes with? jaz<br />

i would sit here and yak for another 10 minutes but i have psychology of sex to study right now and i really need to make at least a B on that test... at least...

so i bid thee goodnite... much love xoxo

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