June 5, 2005

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  [ quote ] :: "i just figured it out... it's because he has a small dick..." - mary kay, talking about adrian

  
  

  [ xangsta ] :: ThatOneSlutUKnow - she writes some very deepy intellectual stuff...

  
  

  [ new subs ] :: SweetMixedStuff - this girl is cool as hell... so see her...

  
  

  [ the sunday seven ] :: copy and paste into a comment

  
  

  do you know what it's like to be used?

  
  

  who do you miss a lot?

  
  

  what is your biggest sin (glutony, lust, jealously, etc...)?

  
  

  do you practice any religion?

  
  

  what artist do you love the most?

  
  

  do you believe in karma?

  
  

  what is your political standpoint?

  
  

  

  
  

  well i apologize for not updating but it had been a rather busy and rough weekend to say the very least... i really dont even feel like updating but i guess it's a good therapy right now so i'm just gonna let it all hang out...

  
  

  lets see... wednesday i was being the perfect gf and took adrian to the beach... how romantic am i? psh. romantic yeah... whatever... anyways i dont remember much from thursday... friday... hmm friday was possibly the worse day ever... i once again was being the perfect gf and suprised adrian when he got out of school... then we left... and p.lane and i went and got some bra's from lane bryant which i need to take 2 back because they are push ups and my big mamajamas keep popping out... haha then we went to p.f.changs... good... then... i like some big idiot forgot googy... i cant believe i did that... and i felt like such an idiot... then we drove down to oceana to see andi at her job... her and p did my make up really great... i still felt horrible about the baby and i thought seeing adrian would make all of that better... no... it made it worse... he broke up with me right there at his job... basically i'm too fat for him and he cant look past that... which hurts... i know i'm big but damn i aint a fuckin block... and i'm losing weight in the first place... oh well... you cant tell no one that know... cause they are fuckin hard headed... he told me he has feelings for me tho and he didnt want to lead me on... which i then said "any further you mean..." i thought a great deal about the situation and as much as i would like to be with him and as much as i like him... i really guess he isnt the person for me... he's superficial, materialistic, and he has no plans of staying in VA... i'm sorry but i am NOT leavin the hampton roads area... so moving right along...

  
  

  i went and saw granddaddy yesterday... i didnt cry tho... and i was very proud of myself... i miss him so much...

  
  

  anyways i texted cory and he texted me back... wow... prayer works thats all i gotta say... i miss him too... but thats a trivial thing...

  
  

  anyways in the love dept... i'm kinda bummed... because i was rejected and that shit is a bitch... but a few posts back i mentioned whether or not i should give a certain person a second chance... because this certain person... is... and wants... everything i want... so i'm gonna see where that leads me... i guess i should stop calling this person someone and just call them by their god given name... yeah... i'm talking about justin.  i know some things got fucked up but i dunno.  it may work out for the very best and it may not... only god knows and only time will tell.  if it's meant to be it will be and if not... then one more heartache to move on from...

  
  

  i know what i'm about to say is rather gross... but i share a lot of things on xanga so i really dont care... it's a part of life... i have a hemorrhoid... yeah... and i dont wish this on anyone... cause it's the most painful thing in the history of the world... it's not big... matter of fact it's not even a serious issue... but i looked it up... and compared to some people i have a walk in the park... so i'm thanking my lucky stars... ugh... gross..

  
  

  PERFECT BOYFRIEND/HUSBAND!<br /> His Look: preppy, ghetto, bohemian<br /> Name: always thought I’d marry a James… but I see myself with a “J” guy<br /> Hair Colour: preferably brown… red heads too<br /> Hair Style (long, short, bowl cut, cornrows, etc) : umm haha laughing about the bowl cut… (the bowl cut club lol)… but seriously… short but long enough for me to run my hands through<br /> Eye colour: I like blue eyes…<br /> Age: 20-23<br /> Height: taller… much taller<br /> Size: skinny<br /> Body build: bean pole<br /> Ethnicity: white… which is American or European… so whatever<br /> Glasses? Hmm sexy<br /> Piercings? Not too many…<br /> big ol booty? or no? yea I like butts… but no butts are cute too lol<br /> label huh<br /> His Mind? Intelligent, deep, open-minded<br /> what does he want be/do when she grows up? Any that makes descent money<br /> Can he speak another language, if yes what? german<br /> Can he read music? Yes…<br /> Can he read guitar tabs? yes<br /> Can he play guitar? yes<br /> piano? OH YES<br /> the drums? He dabbled lol<br /> some other instrument? harmonica<br /> Can he write music? Of course… he’s a musician…<br /> Will he write songs about you? I hope<br /> Will he write poems about you? I hope<br /> Will he be artistic in some way? Of course<br /> Will he "blind you with science?" haha oh yea…</p> <p>His Style<br /> Party hopper or stay at home? stay at home<br /> Straight A student or Drop out? straight a<br /> Does he have a best friend? Sure<br /> is it you? Cute…<br /> Is he straight or bi? straight<br /> Religious? what type? protestant<br /> Virgin till marriage or till "the rite time"? right time…<br /> Should he be able to bake or cook? that would be great<br /> Is it okay for him to have a lot of girl pals? It’s alright…<br /> Out-going or shy?: in between<br /> Should he watch chick-flicks?: yea…<br /> Would he be a smoker?: it would help being that I am<br /> drinking?: occassionally<br /> cursing? Not too much<br /> does he dance? Only slowing dance with me…<br /> soccer? hmm<br /> baseball? YES<br /> basketball? It’s cool<br /> rugby? whatever<br /> golf? Ahhh making me think of someone…<br /> does he drag race? no<br /> does he have a "pimped up" ride? How about pimped out? And I don’t care<br /> Can he surf? sure<br /> skateboard? Sure<br /> snowboard? sure<br /> Would he have an accent? A southern one… or irish…<br /> Anything else? nah</p> <p>You and Him *last part!*<br /> Does he kiss on the first date?: yea but nothing to heavy<br /> Where does he take you? To plays and symphonys<br /> Does he pay? sometimes<br /> Would he lay uder the stars with you and spout random philosophies? Yeah…<br /> Would he use endearments? from time to time<br /> Would you hold hands? All the time<br /> Would you ever stay the nite at his place? Mmm yea<br /> Would he give you flowers/candy or a big expensive gift. Random things… maybe one big gift every once in awhile…<br /> Would he walk you to your door at the end of the nite? Of course<br /> How would he propose? he would make me dinner and then pamper me before asking me... of course on one knee<br /> Lastly, after you meet, get hitched, etc. What do u name your kids? Jeremiah Isaac, Geneva Nichole, Wesley Weldon, Emma Marie, Jude Lee, Stormy Roxanne, Justin Franklin<br />

  
  

  anyways i'm gonna go... i'm gonna clean my room a bit and then go to bed... i have a party to go to in the afternoon... so i'll catch ya'll later much love xoxo

  
  

  <3 jay

  
  

  
  

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