[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "stop hitting me trick!" - ebony, while i was smacking her thighs lol

[ xangsta ] :: Lalaine19RN - she's been through some stuff lately... so give her love **

[ new subs ] :: the_doors_within - this guy has made my 2 weeks LMAO

[ freaky fridays ] :: urban myth clarification # 4

Lottery winner is run over by a truck and dies immediately after win.

TRUE :: Only hours after a 73 year old man won the lottery (73,450), he was hit by a pick up truck and died soon after. Man talk about some bad luck.

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ok... blah... never again lol

IT WAS A TIE!!! (UGH) 50% loves Stuart Townsend!

ok so um... today wasnt has hard as last year... i've got a grip on it now and it doesnt hurt as much... i guess it some ways it hurts more, but i cant feel it... oh well... i stuck it out like a soldier... even tho cried earlier today...

this just shows me god keeps his promises...

i'm such a slacker... i've been to one class this whole week... i'm horrible... i'm going tho tomorrow cause fridays are always cool... haha

ebony straight tried to rape me tonight... she's such a freak... and i'm like DUDE YOU'RE MY SISTER!! lol

i gotta go watch some children tonight or... whatever... it's friday but yeah... 2 kids plus googy... this is gonna be FUN...

this song has too much meaning to me... kelly clarkson / beautiful disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme, I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I tried to save him
My whole world would cave in
It just ain't right
Lord it just ain't right

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Lord would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?

He's magic and myth
He's strong as what I believe
My tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
But do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight
Baby hold me tight

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searchin' for some kind of miracle
Waited so long,
I've waited so long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take

He's beautiful
Lord, he's so beautiful
He's beautiful

 

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anyways... i'm a little loopy right now... so... yea... much love xoxo

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[ mood ] ::  contemplative today...

[ quote ] :: "do it!" - ben stiller, in starksy and hutch

[ xangsta ] :: Lalaine19RN - yea... xangsta... right here **

[ new subs ] ::  jesus what is it?? do i smell or something?? lol

[ dis or dat thursday ] :: i deliver, you dish!!

too many females... time for a man... mmm a yummy man lol

you may know him from movies like "queen of the damned" and "league of extradinary gentlemen"... or for being probably the luckiest dude ever for dating charlize theron!! yes... grab a spoon and eat him up! it's stuart townsend...

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yes i changed the layout... kinda... more like the colors... bright for SPRING!!

so...

HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY!!!

please for god's sake dont forget to wear your green... cause crazy irish people like me WILL pinch the shit outta you for not!! lol

a lot of people piss me off by saying that st. pat's is for drunks.  or they make the stereotypically assumption that all irish people are drunks.  well not all irish people have red hair... so bite me! lol  no, honestly the day is to commemorate the patron saint, maewyn.  so  there! lol to me it's all in fun... some people just like to celebrate in more fun ways... hence the green beer that is usually associated with st. pat's day.  although i hate beer, i will toast a mug next year after i hit 21!! haha

ok anyways... today was a fun day... kinda... lol

p.lane took me out to the cheesecake factory for a late birthday present... it was good and i had fun spending time with my favorite punk black girl... i love her to peices... i'm so glad i saw her...

ebony and i had a heart to heart about our past, not much was said... cause we dont need to speak, we understand each other... she really touched me... and i hope she knows that i'll always love her no matter what happens... she's my rock, my strength, my everything... she's my saving grace... shauni, remember you're my hands and i'm your feet...

i did quite a lot of thinking today... about life, love, school, everything in general... funny how this thinking falls on such a day... i just realize what's really important to me... and i realize patience is a virtue... good things will come...

while i love the 17th cause it's st. pat's day... i love the 17th for other reasons... and that reason i love very much...

well it's time to go to bed... jesus... i need to take my girl to work tomorrow... so i'm out like a light... literally... much love xoxo

<3 jay

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "my hair smells like burnt ass rubber... GOD!" - me, talking about all the smoke smell that was in my hair from the fire pit outside

[ xangsta ] :: Lalaine19RN - send her love <3 **

[ new subs ] :: whats the use in trying... OH FUCK IT ALL... lol j/k

[ a waste of your time wednesday ] :: quizzes with html codes too!

You are LaFawnduh. Why are you so sweaty?

Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
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haha woo hoo i'm the ghetto chick... YAYEE lol

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HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY RODGER!! xo LOVE YA MAN!!

ps - the song is for you... memories... lol

sooo... yea... blah

today was cool... i had a lot of fun with my friends... ron bought a kick ass pit for outside so we were like "the campfire gang" and were stuck to it all night...

i met my friend today... interesting...

i am SUPER DUPER GUPER tired... i think it was being outside all night... that probably didnt help... my eye lids feel like they need to be held up with toothpicks... which in a nutshell i need to carry my happy ass to sleep because i am on a wacky sleep pattern lately... and it's taking a toll on my body, mind, and whatever else

carson called me today... i'm glad he's cool with talking about stuff... hopefully him and i can fix our friendship/lack thereof as well... but i was really glad to hear from him... i was worried about him...

.: x Series Of Ten Survey x :.

10 Of Your Favorite Songs:
01. keane - somewhere only we know
02. jay-z - song cry
03. jay-z - cant be life
04. hanson - underneath
05. ludacris - number one spot
06. coldplay - the scientist
07. reo speedwagon - i cant fight this feeling anymore
08. kelly clarkson - since you been gone
09. eminem - superman
10. the beatles - hey jude

9 Of Your Artists/Bands You're Into:
01. hanson
02. eminem
03. jay-z
04. kayne west
05. aaliyah
06. good charlotte
07. ludacris
08. the beatles
09. kelly clarkson

8 Stores You Shop In:
01. wal-mart LMAO
02. target
03. lane bryant
04. ashley stewart
05. old navy
06. new york
07. hechts
08. dillards

7 Of Your Favorite Movies:
01. moulin rouge
02. napoleon dynamite
03. the little mermaid
04. love actually
05. peggie sue got married
06. beauty and the beast
07. gone with the wind

6 Of Your Closest Friends:
01. ebony
02. mary kay
03. jaz
04. tory
05. p.lane
06. andi

5 Of Your Favorite Candy:
01. reese's cups
02. snickers
03. orange slices - gummy orange with sugar on top lol
04. 5th avenue
05. blow pop

4 Of Your Favorite Tv Shows:
01. real time w/ bill mahr
02. supernanny
03. real world
04. friends

3 Things You're Afraid Of:
01. spiders
02. death - dead things
03. flying insects

2 Of Your Favorite Colors:
01. baby blue
02. green

1 Wish:
01. thats top secret right now lol

alright well... that ends another crazy day... blah much love xoxo

<3 jay

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "oh my god!" - ross, "oh MY god!" - monica, from friends lol

[ xangsta ] :: Lalaine19RN - go see her!! <3 **

[ new subs ] :: oh MY god...  and 5 comments??? wassup wit dat?? lol

[ this is jay every- tuesday ] :: a story or some random fact

i am a HUGE elmo fan.  i really dont know how that got started... but i've been obsessed with the furry little red monster since i was like 13... i have like 20 elmo dolls, elmo keychains, t-shirts, crazy stuff... one of the first elmo things i ever got was after one week of being together cory bought me an elmo watch... and then it was a tradition for him to get me elmo stuff... for christmas i got christmas elmo and E-L-M-O elmo... hehe... and i'm 20 and i still love him to death... thats always a good present idea ::hint hint::

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRAXTON!! - my handsome 5 year old cuzin lol

well today was a snore... blah blah blah... i went back to school how dreadful... it was extrusciating... i so didnt wanna go back

i finally got started on my new book i'm writing... yes along with poetry i write stories... my new one is about a 50 something year old white woman talking about her life... (very funny)... and she reminisces on her involvement in the civil rights movement...

well... umm... i'm glad i dont have class until 3 tomorrow... cause honestly even tho i just got off break i need another one lol

jaz said i have a fantabolistic ass... HAHA taynx sweetheart... my rump is pretty fly lol

:sigh: being in like is cool... ya know LMAO :sigh:

alright well... i think i'm gonna hit it... seriously... i'm tired but i wanna watch a movie and talk to my boo so yeah... i'm out... much love xoxo

<3 jay

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[ mood ] ::  great... happy... wow

[ quote ] :: "fricken du!" - me, cussin people out in my native tongue

[ xangsta ] :: Lalaine19RN - super cool <3 **

[ new subs ] ::  awww

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blinkies - if you know what they are... you LOVE them

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before i go any further...

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TAYLOR!!  

god it makes it seem like i know him... lol i wish... god... what a FINE specimen of a man... beautiful, talented, heartfelt... mmm :sigh:

happy birthday pretty eyes...  i hope to find a man just like you... i love you...

oh look at me... drooling over a married man and a father...

have to add this...

thats to all the haters world wide... i'm still a fanson... will be til the day i die...

FANSON!!! CIRCA 97

ok so... today was GREAT... lemme sum it all up... flickin people off, run in with the cops (actually being protected by the cops lol), shopping, food, disney store, shoes, purses, running around target and pushing ebony and jasmine in the baby shopping cart... haha good times good times

need i say more??

i bought bambi special edition... muhaha... lovely... im such a disney freak

also bought... nine months, peggie sue got married, and the truth about cats and dogs... for only $5.50 each... got a purse too... like i really need another one of those... i will post it... very cute...

well my boo isnt home from band practice yet... he should be anytime tho... so i think i'm gonna curl up with a movie and chill...

andi sent me a link to this girls site... she is apparently starving herself... down to skin and bones.. how sad??? i would post her site... but i dont want any of you to be compelled to say something to her... i felt so sad.  why cant girls understand they are beautiful no matter what?? precisely why i want to be a counselor... because people need someone... anyone

thanks to everyone for the comments... i'll get back to ya'll tomorrow... I LOVE YOU ALL!!!  much love xoxo

<3 jay

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "ron i have no problem saying a woman is hot..." - me, after he said women cant say other women are hot

[ xangsta ] :: !!NEW!! Lalaine19RN - a sweetie <3 **

[ new subs ] ::  boo...

[ the sunday seven ] :: copy and paste in a comment

when was the last time you were seriously touched by something?

what are a few things that you find undeniably sexy in the opposite sex?

what shampoo do you use?

did you love high school? or do you love high school?

what was your first car (make, color, year)?

explain your xanga name.

who would you say you have had a strong connection with on xanga?

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well the night went to SHIT...

i thought i was suppose to chill with my best friends but apparently they had things to do... and while jaz has apologized and fixed it... ebony doesnt call.  i guess she thinks i'm upset with her... and i kinda am.  really if you had plans with one person why would you ditch them if someone else calls??

i could have spent the evening with my friend...

i feel like an emotional twit... i always get my feelings hurt... but thats life

blahze blahze blahze... hmmm

i love the line : "explorer like dora, these swipers cant swipe me!"

You're My Little Pony!! Sweet and innocent and
happy, you make people want to spew burrito
chunks. Even a Care Bear could kick your ass.

What childhood toy from the 80s are you?
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well i'm about to get on the phone and then sleep cause i have church in morning... so i'll holla back... much love xoxo

<3 jay

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[ mood ] ::

[ quote ] :: "THAT'S RIGHT!! EQUALITY!!" - me, chanting while ron was giving a speech to ebony about roles in relationships and marriage

[ xangsta ] :: Aimee1263 - last day... go give her some love...

[ new subs ] :: YAYEE!!  h8thevil - taynx babe xo

[ double trouble saturdays ] :: an MP3 and a pic

in honor of their 26th birthday... i'm gonna featured this MP3

Good Charlotte - I Just Wanna Live

pic :: the very sexy zac hanson... requested by gina7psu

he's not even my favorite but sheesh... oh so fine...

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good god... i really cant believe it's saturday... this week went by so quickly... and i know monday is gonna come even quicker... i'm so not looking forward to going back...

how wack is this? the backstreet boys are coming to our area... but wait wanna hear something even more wack? i wanna go see them LMAO

well so much stuff has happened this week that i've failed to post... ebony and carson broke up... in a way i'm like "good for her", but now i see the resemblance between cory and i, and ebony and carson.  breaking up sucks i know that... it's a bitch.  especially when you love someone more than anything. but a relationship goes both ways... i'm sad to see them deteriorate the way they did because at one time they were perfect.  i dunno if carson reads... but if he is... i'm sorry about the whole ordeal... and i think now you understand how i took cory and i the way i did. you obviously love her very much, just the way i have for cory.

i'm not gonna put this bit of information out and about because i dont know all full details but things are hard for a certain special person in my life.  i wont say their name out of privacy right now.  but i'll tell you this, if it ends up being the way it might be... i'm gonna kill a son of a bitch. that might sound crude... but when i'm finished, they are gonna wish they never started.

man, hate is a disease, you're absolutely right.  and some people will die unhappy people due to that.

anyways i dont have much else to say... right now i'm hurting for people.  one for someone i love deeply, and for another someone because i loved deeply like they do. for one, i've always been there for you and i will always be.  for the second, if you wanna talk, it's ok by me. anyways...

oh thanks to everyone who showed me their music acronyms too... you guys are so sweet! <3

i think i'm gonna go to bed now... much love xoxo

<3 jay

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i'm such an ass... i forgot... p.lane is gonna kill me...

it's benji and joel's 26th bday... :sigh: i <3 them

scroll down for the REAL post...

[ mood ] ::  ugh

[ quote ] :: "he was like 'so tory lets talk' and i was like 'HE CALLED ME ANOTHER GIRL'S NAME!!'" - me, talking to my cousin about this guy i met a few weeks back who's in love with me (but i dont feel the same)

[ xangsta ] :: Aimee1263 - lovely lovely lovely... **

[ new subs ] ::  ::so lonely... i'm miss lonely::

[ freaky fridays ] :: urban legend clarification # 3

Contestant answers oddly to a question given by Bob Eubanks on TV's The Newlywed Game.

TRUE:  Everyone knows the procedure to answering questions on the Newlywed Game.  The host asks one person a question and the signficant other must guess what their spouse answered.  Well here's an interesting Q&A if I do say so myself...

Bob :: Where did your wife say you had your most unusual "whopee session?" (in other words sex...)

Husband :: In the sink...

Bob :: I'm sorry your wife said "in the butt."

Husband :: Damn, I almost said that.

wooo  thats hilarious!! personally... we just dont go there LOL and if we did i wouldnt admit it... lol

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ok so... another boring ass day... as i making you guys sick with this??? haha

THE POLLS ARE IN :: 62% of you LOVE jennifer lopez...

ahh you guys rule... and those that dissed her... you're haters lol but i still love ya

and in regards to the person who came out and asked if i was talking about them... yes, i was...

ok so... ummm yea... hopefully tomorrow i can accomplish something... because i havent done much of anything... and i really cant believe it's friday... jesus... it was just friday yesterday lol... and spring break is almost over... and i didnt do jack shit... GOSH ::runs away:: haha

i honestly love my subscribers... sometimes i like you guys more than my real life friends... haha seriously... you're all so awesomely (new word) great... muah

ok well it is officially time to sign off... because a certain bossy person :ahem: drew wants to call me... so i have to do what he says... lol right... ok well taynx guys... much love xoxo

something interesting... similar to yesterday... take your favorite band and put their lyrics for every letter of your name...

Hanson